Im sowiie. Its not tat im not moving on wif my lyfe.

I am, bt im just not over hyme.

Its different between euu and me; eu're a guy.

A guy who could easily get a replacement.

Im not. Infact, i've pwomised to alwaes stay single untill i find the right one.

Yes, euu're gud boy. Much better den those jerks out there.

But im still not ready

Yes, its true fr wadd eu said.

Just becoz of a guy tat has busted eu, eu dont move on wif ur life.

Eu donnoe hw it feels like being busted by the one euu really love.

8 tymes of relationship. & i failed.

Failed over and over again to find my true love.

Yes, this is just a puppy love.

Shouldnt hav too much commitment.

But whyy must its alwaes be me tat has to get hurt over & over again.

Each tyme i failed, i cried.

Cried coz the guy who i love leaves me.

Abandoned me lyke hw i've been abandoned by my own mother.

I didnt even get to feel a parent's love.

Whyy life is soo unfair to me?

Dont put too much hopes on ur fwens coz one day,

they were shurely let euu down.

Who should i go to wen i nid a shoulder to cry on?

What must i do?

Just sit & cry?

I don wanna waste my tears anymore.

Im not a baby anymore who keeps on crying wen things goes wrong.

I have to face life. Face the reality.

But im too weak.

Too weak to face all of this.

Yes, i do have a wonderful siblings.

I do have a lovable honeylicious.

I do have a caring soulbby,

but something is missing.

& idk wat it is.

I wish i was a kid again,

cos skinned knees are easier to fix than a broken heart.

I wish i had the guts to walk away & frgt abt wad we've been through.

But each tyme i tried, there's alwaes something tat keeps holding me back.

Life isnt the sam anymore.

Especially this year. I wonder whyy i keep hating 2009.

I wish i could turn the back tyme and enjoy my life again wif my loved ones.

Everything seems to change.

Everything

Fwens; FANS are getting apart.

I miss those days where we had fun, laughing our ass off.

Sharing our problems.

Talking crap fulltyme.

And euu gurl; there's something tat seems to be wrong.

We were nt lyke lastyme, where euu and me are alwaes together.

Till people thaught tat we are twins.
Its just different now.

And mom; eu donnoe hw it feels to be abandoned.

Wat shud i do to wake euu up?

Eu can throw all the money away.

I donnid them.

All i nid is eu.

Ur touch. Ur kiss. Ur nag. Everything.

Please, im lack of mother love.

Now, tell me, hw am i gonna move on without my love ones guiding me?

I swear, im lost.

Totally lost.

Hairul, Im sowwie. Ayien tknk hairul suker ayien.

Tk gune nk suker ngan org yg tknk brcinte lagy.

&& trust me, hairul will shurely fine the right one oneday(:

Eu hurt me more den i deserve.

How cud euu be soo cruel?

I love euu more den euu deserve.

Whyy am i such a fool?