♥It's always been you♥

hate this feeling.

2011-01-29T11:25:00.002+08:00

I dont like people talking behind my back, act as though they like me when the truth is they dont. They are nice infront of you, but the next thing you know they talk bad behind you. Tell me, what you get being hypocrite?
Whatever happened in the past, was past. Fuck the past, kiss the future.
But i'm glad that i still have my girlfriends with me. I have my tagteam. I have my wondergirls.
Please. I wanna be loved by everyone.

2011-01-28T21:42:00.002+08:00

hi. Its been long since i update my blog. Yes, i've been busy with my school stuff, chingay. I'm now at Nyza's crib. Went bugis just now to do some shopping. I bought dress and jeans. There will be no DK Chingay training tomorrow due to the Puncak comp on sunday. Im glad that Pamela and Hazwan will be tagging along to watch puncak comp with me. Well, kita sama2 akan saksikan Luqhman 'gay' perform (: Owhh! I made new friends during Chingay, Ni sumua kawan2 pamela.
Wanna noe what happened to QIp and me? Well, as you guys can see my previous post, we broke up. Idw to blame him nor myself. Dua2 salah. Lets just say we're meant to be just friends. Relationship are just temporary thing in life. At this kind of age, idw to find love and stuff. Let love come by itself. Cinta dicari pasti pergi, cinta sejati kekal abadi(:

Cant get over it.

2010-12-27T12:01:00.002+08:00

I just broke up with him 3days ago.

Well, tk kesampaian 1yr3month.

Idk why am i sad.

Pdhal this is wat i always wanted. And now idk why i'm regret.

Sighs. Suprisingly, he asked fr a brk.

We did had a fight before he ask fr it.

Sighs. idw to elaborate more.

I really have no mood to type.

Till here.

Such a liar.

John cena and ayien eflie

2010-12-22T10:24:00.002+08:00

Its always been you.

Hello readers(:
Im soo sad.
I watched wresling semalam; survivor series.
And John Cena jadi referee.
If wade barrett menang, john cena will be free from nexus.
But if wade barrett kalah, john cena will be fired.
Wade barrett vs Randy orton.
I mean, of course randy orton akan menang kn?
But john cena really made a good choice by did the right thing luh.
Im proud of my husband((:
Now john cena da tkdr kt wwe lagi.
I mean, sape akan ain tgk besides then john cena?
I always buy the disc to watch john cena.
But now he's fired :(
But the best thing is, Orton ngn Cena hug each other.
Okay, i cried yesterday when cena's fired.
Lepas tgk pn ain nanges.
I mean, idw cena to go :(

Baby, i love you sayang.

No matter what happened, i'll stand by you.

So it doesnt matter if eu're still in wwe or not,

I will always love you.

I know, you love me too((:

Now you will have more time to spent with me.

Awwww, iloveyousomuch :'(

You cant see me.

Lets go!

2010-12-20T03:09:00.001+08:00

Hey readers(:

Now its 3.11 am and im still not asleep yet.

Im at ikyn's home! Hehe.

Went out with her today. But before that, cabbed to pekuburan wif siblings.

Den cabbed bck to J8 to eat.

2nd bro wanna eat at Pizza hut.

But abg wanna eat at Pastamania.

But I pleaded abg to mkn at Swensens.

So yeah, we ate at Swensens. Hehe! Thankiiew brother((:

After that rush home cos i need to meet my beautiful cousin, ikkyn!

Haha! Jgn kembang ehh!

Trained to Harbourfront. We went Vivo

So yaeh, Camwhore like mad!

I got irritated as we need to move from place to place to find the right spot to take pictures.

And i really hate when people keep staring at us.

Okay, Pictures are all in FB.

Owh ya! I wash my long dress yesterday.

I hang it outside my house.

ANd guess wat? The next morning, its gone!

GREAT! SOMEONE STOLE MY LONG DRESS!

I bought it using my own money.

And thats the only long dress i had.

And now its gone :(

Sengket sgt ke org2 ni sumer sampai nk curi!

Hmph. Nvm. Dont wanna talk about this anymore.

Darah up jer.

Okay, till here candies!

I wanna sleep

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I love the way he winks at me

2010-12-17T01:40:00.000+08:00

Heyyyyy(:
Sorry fr not been updating.
I knoe no one will came across my blog,
bt yeah, im still gonna post.
Okay, im speechless.
Lets talked about monday!
Went Sentosa with girlfriends.
Unfortunately, Illy couldnt make it.
Went there for picnic.
AND yeah, that day i realised something about my friends.
Dont wanna elaborate more bout it.
But i really hate wen im always the last one to noe about something.
So yeah. (:

Nice tk blog ayien? Thanks to my beloved tagteam; Hanyza!
Now is 2.30am. And Nyza and i are still awake! Hehe.
Anyway, im at Nyza's place. Overnite satu mlm.
Went to parkway parade wif nyza.
accompanied her to buy her schoolbag.
Nice! Billabong! Hehe! Ayien pon nk! Tapi ayien nk VAns(:
Den went to her place to watch movies;
inikah rasanya cinta, jgn pdg blakang congkak2 and duhai si pari2.
Okay. more pictures on fb.
So yeah, till here(:

Saye fall in love ngan JOHN CENA

i cant wait.

2010-11-15T11:18:00.001+08:00

Hello sweets!

Im sooo pist off wif bloger, i wanna upload pictures bt cannot :(

Shit eu blogger!

okay, im sooo tired.

I've been working, My arms are aching due to work.

But nvm, endure(:

Kawan kawan, im going Taiwan this thurs.

So pray hard fr my safety okay? Hehe.

Im sooo gonna shop mcm org gila!

Tapi tatawu laa klao im gonna bring alot of money ke tk.

But hopefully will(:

I miss of people. I miss my dad, zoolkefli(:

I miss my girlfriends.

I miss my mum.

I miss my cousins.

I miss everyone. Girlfrens, please mit up soon :(

I had fun celebrating depavali.

Hehe! Ayien multi racial.

Soon, christmas(:

weeee! Banyak ayien nk post tapi since tkbley upload picture, ayien tk akan bobal byk.

Tgu blogger kembali pulih yer?

Selamat tinggal (:

Have eu ever love someone so badly that eu don wanna love anyone else?

im happy now.

2010-11-06T12:08:00.000+08:00

Hello readers! (:
Miss me? Hehe! I didnt know tat some people would go to my blog and read it.

I mean i seldom update right? So i tot no one would view my blog.

But to my suprised, Nyza still check on my blog. Thankiieww syg(:

Well, i'm glad that my emotions are back to normal.

I don feel horrible anymore. Yelaa, i always cried wen i miss that someone
But wen i think back, im still not ready yet for love.

Yes, im still wif Qip. Tapi tuhan saje laa yg tawu how much i've been hurting him.

I tried to avoid him cos i cant go on lying to him that i love him.
Enough of that.
Im now happy being this way. I have my wonderful girlfriends.

I have my babes that cheered me up.

I have my awesome siblings that never fails to make me laugh.
I have a caring mummy that never fails to shower me wif love.

And see tat? I dont need a boyfriend to make my life complete cos i have my love ones by my side.
I have soo much to talk about. So many pics to post.

Bt slowly okay? I cant be posting all the pictures in one day.

See the pictures above? Gee.
Met my hunks and honey. Miss them alot.
We went to grandlink to play pool. Pamela wanted to play pool so badly.
Well, idk how to play pool.
But dearest Juf helped me. Hehe. See the yellow shirt there? Yes, thats him.
My dearest ex(: But nah, i prefer regard him as my fren.
Juf asked me to try play without his help.
And i did. Shoot je bola da bounce!
We all laughed like hell! Sampai tergolek-golek.
I was freaking embarrased. Gee.
Den Juf help me all the way. Thanks astroboyy!
Den went to ecp.
We lepak till mlm; camwhore, sharing problems, gossiping.
Well, its super fun. I wish we could go out again.
Well, thats it. Thats all im gonna post.
I will be posting about bbysiting and my new work some other day.
Takeqaire love.

i'll never stop thinking of you.

18 OCT 2010

2010-10-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

i'll get the feelings back.

Exams over! Finally cn relax. But somehow worried fr my results.

Just hope fr the best luhh kan.

Its weird cos i've been craving to go to hospital. Den end up my brother was admitted to hospital.

So yeah, tknk crave ape2 lagi luh.

On saturday, i went to meet ibu at bedok. Had my breakfast there.

Den went to tamp cos ibu wanna buy some stuff.

After that, we went to Tan Tock Seng Hospital to visit my beloved gummybear brother.

Saw this malay guy nurse. Impress luh kan lelaki jadi nurse.

Wen i grow up, i wanna be a nurse! Haha!

Azura and puma keep teasing abt nurse. They laughed at me!

Tkpe krg, klao aku da success bru korang tawu :)

Oh yaaa, not to forget, i went 2 weeks of nite study before the exams.

Haha. Fun gitu kan blaja ramai2 kt canteen.

Haha. Enough of that.

So back to the story, after visited brother, we went to bugis.

Ibu belikan ain baju! Yayay!

Haha. Den went back to Bedok to fetch lil dannny.

Ate mee Soto. Like finally dpt mkn mee soto kat kedai inspirasi.

Didnt meet Qip on the weekends due to his busy-ness on Satu family.

Well, i don mind. Asal kan diyer bahagia laa kan.

Haha. Proud laa kn his team was first in the first round.

Next round bile lagi ehh? Hopefully berjaya(:

Okay, im super bored.

Abang is sleeping beside me. Hmph.

I think i wanna sleep wif abg today.

Tido ngan kakak, kakak tk abes2 nanges otp ngan mataernye. Mcm memekak gitu.

Gosh, its 1 am in the morning and im not asleep yet.

Confirm overslept bsk. So till here(:

Im trying my very best to forget bout eu and move on wif my life.

Im trying my very best to love hyme back tho im still loving eu.

If this is wat eu want, i'll do it.

All of ur words are BULLSHITS.

Sob sob sob.

2010-10-08T09:13:00.000+08:00

I dont think people will even click to my blog and read it.

But nvm, i just wanna express my feelings here.

Dont even noe who to turn to.

Been feeling horrible lately. No, all the times.

But i managed to smile so that frens dont hav to noe im sad.

I donnoe why.

I wanna cry. I wish i cud just share wif someone how i feel.

Sis came back from penang and bought this super miniskirt.

I like the skirt except that it was soooo super short.

Don even think im wearing it.

I just wish eu would text me.

Even a short msg pn jadi laa.

2010-09-29T08:28:00.000+08:00

It hurts menaruh harapan kt org.

It hurts hoping that someday we'll be together.

Wats the point having the same feelings fr each other but end up we both knew we wont be tgthr.

Eu urself said we are not meant fr each other.

Tkpelah, adr hikmah di sebalik nie sume(:

Just so you noe, i love you sleepyhead.

2010-05-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

i wanna be a fren eu cud count on

hello people! Nie sume gambar tat tyme ayien kluar ngan dearest Nyza.

Nyza waited fr me outside skewl.

At first mmg ayien tatawu. But illy and atiqah told me tat fyie and nyza were outside skewl.

Tats wen da tk suprise lagy. Bt nyza huns, i am suprise to see eu there. I really am.

Hehe! Lawa kn kyter? Haha. Sampai adr pmpn gossip2. Btol tk nyza syqk?

Okae, went to hougang since kiter tatawu maner tmpat lagy nk gy.

So decided to go hougang walaopn ain tk suker gy sane. But sng utk nyza alek.

Went there, nyza treat ayien ljs. Awwww, thankieew bby!

June kiter kluar den i shall treat eu okae!

The first tyme i came hougang near to nyza house is wen i accompanied fyie to settle some stuff.

Tuh pon lastyear.
Wen i was there, some bad things happened. And i promised myself nt to jejak hougang pn.
Bt on monday i went there again. This tyme bkn dkt ngan ruma nyza. Tapy kt hougang mall.
And again, the same weird scary incidents happened.
Skg nie ayien tkt nk gysane.

Hopefully wen i go there in future to come, tk akan terjady perkare sedemikian lagi(:

Okae, had my malay oral yesterdae.

And jesus, it was bad! Pd ayien luhqk.

Lebih terok lagy byler cikgunyer Rosnani!

Ayien:Slamat pagi cikgu.
C.Rosnani:Slamat pagi. (give the stoink face)
Ain:Boleh sye dudok?

C.Rosnani:*still giving the stoink face*
So ayien duduk pelahan2 since diyer tk ckp boleh. Haha!
C.Rosnani:Sila bace apabila anda sudah bersedia.
Ayien: *bace dgn laju mcm mrt sbb nga gementar dgn cikgu*
Byler dabes bace, she look at me and i look at her.
C.Rosnani: *still staring* Baik, beritahu saya bagaimana harus kita membalas jasa budi ibu bapa kita.
Ayien: *blank buat 3 sec.*
Ayien:*start the convo*
C.Rosnani: *just stare at my face*
Wen the conversation ended, she still have the blank/expressionless face.
C.Rosnani:Anda boleh beredar.

Wth gytu kn!? I seriously donnoe if i can pass my malay oral ke tk. Sighs.

But tkper laa. Hopefully cn(:

Alright, till here(:

You donnid to be an artist to be creative,all eu nid is your fingertips!

Happy annivesary tagteam (:

2010-05-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

I noe wats the best for me.

Hey dearest readers(:

Da lamer tk blog. My blog da mati gytu kn?

Confirm kwn2 da tk tgk blog ayien lagy.

Tapy tkper laa. Ayien blog to express and not to impress(:

So here it goes, Firstly, I wanna wish my dearest tagteam, HANYZA BTE RIPIN, happy 10mthsarry!

Hehe, tak sangke our frenship da 10mth kn? Hehe.

I wanna thank eu fr being the best, understanding tagteam.

Eu've been there for me whether times are good or bad.

Sorry if im not a good fren to eu. Sorry fr not being able to be ur listening ears and a shoulder to cry on. I truly appreciate every single things eu done for me. Nyza laa kwn dunie akhirat ayien(:

Monday we mit kae syg? SAYANK NYZA !

hehe! Okae. secondly, this week im having midyear exams.

Tady pn geo paper. Quite senang sbb ayien pn da blaja. Cumer some parts jer ayien tk dpt blaja due to kesuntukan waktu. I shud hav studied earlier but i've been busy wif dikir barat.

And! Srikandi Tiara Wijaya dpt masok final! Alhamdulilah(:

Now, dearest boyfriend leave me alone. Sadsad):

Hehe! Diyer nk kluar gy jumper kwn2.

So i ask hyme to go ahead, taknk plak nnty kwn2 diyer ckp diyer bubble.

I now ur intention is to accompany me, bt its okae syyg. I'll be fine(:

Currently nga edit picture ! Hehe ! Actually byk skali story ayien nk post.

Tapy mase tk sempat. Kalao berkesempatan, akan ku sambong alek ceritaku(:

Paipai conflakes(:

091209

2009-12-09T11:56:00.000+08:00

Hello dearest readers((:

The tittle will alwaes be the real date.

Blogger sioww ! Todae its 9 december but end up 8 december.

Nebermind-_-"

Huhuu ! Okae, let me talk abt yesterde.

Firstly, mit dearest Qip in the mawnink.

Skola nyr strt at 1.

So mit hyme den recieve a call fwom dearest dyh.

She told me that she's late fr skewl and donnoe where to go.

So i told hr to mit me at tpy since dearest Qip going off soon.

So yeah, mit hr aftr Qip go to skewl.

Spent tyme in the library wif dearest beloved cuz((:

Well, each tyme we mit, we will shurely have many things to share about.

We'll talk about boyyfrens, family, frens and many other stuff((:

I love being around her(:

Den went to tpy again! But this tyme mit areena at hr house.

She kena grounded. read my lips bebeyhh ! *Biarkan kaw rasekan sikeeet!*

Gee. Jahat btol ayien nie.

Watched citer bohsia since areena tk prnh tgk! Muahahahah !

Den play lappy. Thats wen she creareted fb fr me(((:

Gee((: However , im blurr. Sumpah ayien tatawu gunerkn fb. Sbb tuh ayien tk prnh nk kuaser nk create one. But since arina da uatkn, so no choice.

And yeah, finally everything is over.

Hope our frenship wont face any of this problems anymore.

And to euu my dear fyie, happy advance 6mthsarry dearest.

Tho i may be egoistic all the tyme, i still do nid eu.

Hais, before eu go on hoildae, i would like to mit eu and sort things out.

Can we?

Sighs, blogger is giving me headache.

I canteven upload any pictures.

Ayien nk upload byk gbr! Psl outing to vivo wif dearest conflakes, outing wif nyza, pictures of me, of course! Andand pictures of my frens that i love((:

Maybe blogger noe i wn to upload alot of pictures, sbb tuh diyer tk mengizinkn? maybe

-_-"

Abang ALip: adeq, abg da ptg botak taww.

Ayien: Huh ?! Knaper?

Abg alip: Abg nk gy ns):

AYien: Knaper tk blg?!

Abg Alip: Sbb tknk adeq worry psl abg..

Ayien: Maner bley gytu!

Abg Alip: Haha. tk laa, abg tk gy ns. Sajer jer pgt botak.

Jahatkn abg alip nieeee ! Uat suspend jer. Pk kan diyer btol2 gy ns.

Huhu ! Awwwwwwwww, im soooo gonnnnnaaa miss ur hair luhqk.

Ur long smooth hair. Bley uat commercial fr shampoo sunsilk((:

Abg wanna mit me on fri. But idk if can. Hopefully can((:

Till here, babyhoneyhstars !

Kalao adr kesempatan, ayien akan update lagy((:

'eu may not be the first gurl i fall in love wif,

But i hope eu'll be the last gurl to enter my heart'

Library

2009-12-08T13:18:00.001+08:00

Hello dearest readers !

Sorry fr not updating blog. Gee((:

Kalau berkesempatan jer ayien update.

And the date supposed to be today's date; 08 december .

But tatawuu why its in 07 nyr date.

As eu guys can see the previous post, areena yg update.

Wen i read it, i smile.

But wen i go to fyie and her blog, i began to have the hatred feelings again.

; Post fr each other blog, same blogskin, calling each other byie, etc.

Sighs.

Sometymes i wanna take puma's, dyh's, Qip's, Ibu's, Nyza's advice.

Which is to just ignore them since they don nid euu.

But i cant):

Ayien terlalu sayangkan persahabatan niee sampai nanges tho i tried not to *sadface*

Idk if they care or not.

But wen i read their blog, im sad wen the talk to illy like as if illy is not their fwen.

Maybe not to fyie, but illy is ur fwen, NURKHAI ARINA BTE KHAIRUDIN !

Astaga. Areena, illy is ur fwen. Infact, ur bestfwen. Why must eu talk to hr tat wae mase kt blog.

Yes fyie, sifat tkdr ego. Se-ego2 akuu pn, atleast akuu tawu batasnyr.

Euu guys are too much, bt still, im keeping this to myself.

Maybe one dae i shud open up ur eyes and make eu guys realise how far eu guys have gone to.

And telling illy that all of ur fcukiing stories are just fairytales, hurts me.

How cud eu tell this to ur own best fwen, tbs?

And both of eu pls stop siding each other kae.

Just because i kept quiet, doesnt mean im not mad at eu guys.

Carry on calling me egoistic. I don mind.

Tapy se-ego2 aku, saper yg kenal2 kn korang to each other?

Think first luhh, wadever steps eu guys take, im alwaes the one hu's hurt due to u guys' behaviours.

Please atleast adr hati perot.

And fyie, eu may have areena now. And i noe eu don mind loosing a fcuking soulbaby just to get close wif ur adorable kiddo or wadsoever. But please, mind ur words and ur attitude.

And areena, iknoe ur problem now. But im not gonna expose it here.

Few advice, if eu don wan ur parents to think that wae, den act like eu're not.

If eu guys really wanna save this frenship,

please, for the sake of our frenship, stop doing wat eu guys are doing rite nowww.

And to dearest illy ; Im sowiie tat my pri skewl fwen treat eu like this.

I noe eu're hurt tho eu may show as if eu're fine.

Insyaallah sumer nnieyh akan berakhir kalau dorang sayangkn persahabatan niee.

Sahabat..

Sahabat sangat bermakna padaku.

Dia selalu berada disisiku.

Tapi..

Semakin lama dia melupaiku..

Di manakah..

Perhatiannya terhadapku..

Manakah pergi janji2 kita..

Mengapa..

Saat ini kaw pergi?

Aku merinduimu.

Adorable kiddo disini ye (:

2009-12-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

Harloo ! It's me (: some of you might have seen me in other blogs lah kan .
So , I'm here to blog fr my dear Nur'ain bte Zoolkefli .
Tak salah kan ? Hahaha . So . I just finished talking to her otp .
She is damn kecoh okayy . And i told her abt my very own problem and she laughed at me .
Eff you bimbo ! Hahah . Nahh . Love you bimbo !
So . Ytd went Dikir Training , didnt talk to this blog owner cos we fought and both of us have EGOs . Bt tdy , evertyh's fine . Alah , it's kinda normal if Areena and Ayien fight . Tapi i'm not taking it fr granted uhks . Sbb i cherish our friendship (:

And I love this bimbotically hotstuff of mine . Teehee :D
So . We had fought since the day we became bestfrens right ? No matter what i still won't leave you even if you leave fr somebody else .
Cheyy ! Mcm P . Bt , seriously . I wont .
Mark my words will you ?

You've been there fr me throughout my secondary sch life .
Whn I cried , you lend me those bonefull shoulders of yours . hehe .
Bt i appreciate it .
You made me laugh at your lame yet silly jokes .
You always made my day even if i was really mad at someth .
Note that no one can replace you kkay ?
I say what i mean and I mean what i say .

I still remembered the days whn we were just normal friends and suddenly , i became your best fren without even knowing it . Bt i Love it and still am loving it now .
I'm sry fr hurting you . sry fr neglecting you . I knw how hurt you are and I felt bad whn u told me that yg whn u ngah demam , u went fr the outing and thought that i was there .
I'm sry . One day we'll go out together kkay ? Soon tau .
Please dnt cry over me anymore ? I dnt want you to waste your tears on me . Your tears are as precious as my momma's jewellery ! Ingat tk line tu ?
Hahaha .

Erm . i've got to thank you fr understanding me and advicing me whn i'm in the wrong path . Aku saaaaayang kau mnyk mnyk lah Bimbo . hahah .
I actually wanted to go your house and take care of you tau . skali dpt tau tkbuleh pi netball .
What seii .
Nvm . some other day alright (:
I think ive typed enough . So i'll come again if you want me to post fr you kkay , dear owner ?

To Hawtstuff :
Thanks fr giving me the permission to blog in this wonderful blog of yours .
I appreciate it . Klu nk aku blog kan lagik , just tell me okayy ??
Jager dirik baek baek . I might not have the time to jager you . So , you jager dirik baek baek kkay ? Saaaaaaaayang kau lah bachen !

Sorry

2009-11-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

Hello dearest readers!

Well, todae i went out wif puma.

Awwwwww, soo the very fun spending my tyme wif puma.

Puma and hr craziness really make me cant stop laughing at hr.

We watched 2012.

Mcm gytu ker klao dunie nk kiamat?

Sighs, nanaq luhqk ayien. Takot)):

Huhu ! Tawuu pn takot!

Gee, finally get to eat fried mars ball again.

Puma mkn mknan tk halal!

Heheh! Ayien ckp byk pdhal mkn jgk. *giggles*

Well, met dearest qip aftr tat.

Sighs, had a fight again!

And this tyme, its seriously my fault.

Bkn nyr ayien sengaje nk jumper diyer lmbt.

But i had a last min plan wif puma abt watching 2012.

And im sorry i didnt informed eu and making waited fr me lyke a dummy.

My batt was low and i off my fone):

We had a quarrel.

Eu shouted at me. Eu scold me lyke as if im a nine year old kid.

Eu said i've changed.

I couldnt take it anymore.

The sentence tat uttered by my lips are " I donnoe wats my feelings fr you anymore!"

Just so eu noe, im sensetive.

Each tyme we had a quarrel, eu raised ur voice at me.

Im disappointed. Tats wen my feeliings fr eu strt to fade.

Yes, im just a 14 year old gurl hu still learning the meaning of love.

Eu're a 20 year old guy who wants a serious relationship.

Eu noe i nvr ever lastlong in my past relationship.

I told eu i nid tyme and all eu do is giving my sony ericson fone back.

I noe i've been a bitch this few days and been showing my fcuking attitude towards eu.

I shouldnt do tat just bcoz im mad at my frens.

Through out the night, eu've been talking, nagging and scolding me.

I noe how mad eu are.

Eu're soo mad tat eu nearly leave me.

Till tat point of tyme, i burst in tears knowing tat eu gonna leave me.

And till tat point of tyme i noe tat its the end of us.

I hold eu tite, begging eu not to leave me.

I cried like a nine year old kid tat has lost a mother.

I noe how eu feel and i noe im bad making eu love me tis much.

And i really learn a lesson.

Hargai seseorang yg menyayangi kyter.

Jgn sampai diyer tinggalkn kyter bru kyter nk realise yg mereka menyayangi kyter.

How stupid i am. Wenever there's a problem, i nvr open up to eu.

All i do was keep my mouth shut and showing my attitude.

Im sorry fr hurting eu. Fr not telling eu wat my problems are.

Fr making eu sick and tired of me.

Eu hold me tite and telling me how much eu love me.

And wen eu hug me tite, i bagan to realise tat eu truly love me.

Alhamdulilah, everything was fine now.

And im glad tat eu're still contacting wif me.

And i've promised eu not to have this kind of attitude again and not to hide things fwom eu.

Iloveyou.

Disappointed

2009-11-17T13:11:00.000+08:00

sometymes its a regret knowing euu guys.

Hello dearest readers!

Sorry fr not been updating.

Sorry to my dearest avid readers fr not updating! (:
Internet cant be use luhh. So, i bring my lappy to library just to update my blog!

Byler bukak tag jer, da dpt 22 comments, 14 fren request.

Mepeq sunggoh!

Well, I didnt do much on holidays.

Infact, this holidays are boring! I swear!

Monday- Netball trainning.

Tuesday- Free.

Wednesdae- Netball training, Dikir barat training.

Thursdae- Netball training.

Fridae- Free.

Sat- Free.

Sun- Dikir barat training.

See! Atleast netball and dikir da cukop bagos taww!

If not i'll be stuck at home doiing nothink!

Klao free pn, ayien akn jumper puma and spend my tyme together wif her.

If not pn, ayien akn mit my dearest mrpotek.

I've been in bad terms wif areena and fyie.

Slalu if i wanna talk abt them, i will shurely type out ' truebestfren' and 'soulbabe' kn?

But not anymore. I'll just type out the names.

Maybe eu guys donnoe wt happened between me and them.

Frget it, i don care.

Biarlaa illy, puma dan fifie jer tawuu.

And biarlaa ayien sorang jer yg tawu ayien anggap dorang sebagai aper.

Tho i smile, i still have the hatred in you guys.

Idk why, and wen i sae i hate someone, i hate to the fullest.

Yesh, ayien beruba kn?

I realise tat its better to change to be bad rather den being too gud cos all of this people will betray euu.

All i could sae is i regret and im disappointed in eu guys.

No matter how many sorry eu says, im still holding grudge.

Why am i behaving this wae? Sometymes i don undrstand myself.

But hu cares kn? Sumer org beruba. Including the two of eu!

Im sorry. Bt all tis while im just wasting my tyme, wasting my tears.

End up, samer jgk. Tk worth it kn?

Hais, its okay. All i noe, i have illy and puma.

Tuhh da cukop bagos. Biar kehilangan soulbabe dan tbs darypd hidop ngan drg yg slalu bertopeng.

Labels; silentcry.

(:

2009-10-17T15:40:00.000+08:00

Happy 4mth annivasary soulbabe.

hello dearest sexy macho readers !

Saturdae saturdae saturdae !

Owh, i hate weekends.

Sooo the super duper boring !

Lagy lagy byler ezlink card tkdr !

Soo the susa nk kluar ! Benci uhh ! *sadface*

Alright, todae wat date eyqk?

17.10.09. Huhuhu ^^"

Happy 4 month anni dearest soulbabe !

The picture above is my dearest soulbabe !

Huhu ^^ Cute kn? Biaser uhh, ayien yg punye((:

Huhu ! Okay, todae tk kluar.

Bowiink bowiink bowiink !

So stay at home wif dearest brother and stepfather.

Eeeeeeeeeeeee ! So bored !

I've been locking myself in the room.

Frankling speaking, im scared of stepfather.

Bkn takot aper, cumer takot klao diyer uat pa per.

Hahahks, cos tady mase ayien nga baweng2, he stand outside th door.

And i didnt closed my room's door.

I noe wat he did, bt im not gonna tell luhqk, and he noe that i noe, so diyer step tnyr2 soalan.

Fuck seyy ! I hate hyme uhh.

Da laa uma cumer adr abg. Ayien complaint kt abg bru tawu !

Biar abg punch his face ! *evil laugh*

Okay stop it!

But seriously, klao kwn2 sumer di situasi ayien, pasti kwn2 akn ngeri.

Huhuhu ^^"

So ayien ask dearest areena to call.

And she did! So we talk and talk and talk !

Kiter due gyler luh. Sampai kiter due composed lagu !

Huhu^^

Lagu sedap ! Tapy suare nyer yg tk menyedapkan.

Hehehe ((:

Step father da kluar, alhamdulilah((:

But abg nk kluar ngan abg sedare, aiyoooh !

Abeyh ayien sorang2? *nk nanges*

Huhu ^^"

Kakak awien maner eyqk? Smlm dalaa tk alek! Aper nk jady ngan nieyh anak dara nieyh? *step mara*.

Huhuhu !

Ini Zukkri((:
Ex sye yg naughty, yg cute, yg jahat, yg tembam, yg boncet, yg mulot teramat amat!
Huhu ^^ I manage to took tis picture. Sec1 peyh picture. Cute kn?
Awwwww, sayang ini ex banget2.
Ex? Why i brk wif hyme? Huhu ^^
If only he noe how to treat me well, if only he noe how to appreciate me,
Ayien tk akn brk ngan diyer.
And aftr the broke up, shocked to hear tat he bacame worst.
Tattoo sini, tattoo saner. Hais.
I remember wen he used to complaint to me wenever he see guys wif tattoo.
Diyer promise nanaqk adr tattoo pn.
Bt now? Nampak sah kn sumer tk bleyh pakai?
Sumer janji2 lelaki tkbleyh pakai.
Pheeeww, im glad tat im single. Tk sanggop hidop ngan lelaki yg slalu mungkir janji.

To my dearest soulbabe;
happy 4mth anni((:
Tho we may not be as closed as before,
alwaes rmbr that ayien fli syqk fyie ali.
Okay? We shall go out soon.
And eat chillie crab, gy picnic, tgk sunset, tgk star.
Kn best tuh? Heheh!
Im speechless luh-__-"
Paipai switheart! ((:

Alright sexymacho dearest readers! Till here((:

labels; Cinter terpendam.

no more exams((:

2009-10-16T18:22:00.000+08:00

Love will come by itself((:

Hello dearest readers !

Finally, exams are over !

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ !

Enjoy enjoy enjoy !

I wanna go out wif dearest fwens,

but sadly i cant):

Since i lost my ezlink card, im lazy to go out wif fwens.

I just waiting fr mama to bring me go make new ezlink card.

Brape lame tuhh? Hais, confirm lame lagy.

Owh yarh ! Next wed, im going to Changi thingy fr sec2 camp!

Weeeeeeeeeee~! We'll be going to pulau ubin jgk, tapy tk sampai 1 ari uhh.

Hahahahks, okay, wat am i talking abt? Hahah -_-"

Alright, lets talk abt today.

Went to skewl, had science paper.

Senang, senang sbb ayien uat sembarang !

Huhuhu ^^"

Ayien blank luhh.

Sumpah, pdhal i've been revising science the whole dae yesterdae.

But yet todae, i cnt do the paper. Weird kn?

Da laa samer paper ngan express. Tk fair btol !

Aftr exams, went to coffee shop and hav some breakfast!

Went home and sleep !

Areena ask me if i wanna follow hr mit dearest soulbabe.

I wish i could. But ezlink da tkdr kn, so malas luh nk kluar tampe ezlink.

And whoever wanna go out wif me, sorry.

I don wish to go out till i make new ezlink card! ((:

Spent my dae at home wif dearest abang2 and abang sedare !

Abang sedare: Ayien, aku nk mataer uhh.

Ayien: Nak sebok2 carik mataer uat per? Let love come by itself.

Abang sedare: Kaw sng uhh ckp. Kaw 14. Aku 21 ! Akuu nk kahwen !

Ayien: Kaw nk kahwen? Lerrr, cepat nyer. Tuh pmpn nurain yg kaw knl2 tuh adr. Gy uhh kt diyer.

Abang sedare: Kaw nk jady mataer aku? Kaw pn nurain! *hug me*

Ayien: Yus ! *shout his name*

Abang sedare: *kiss me on my cheeks*Kaw blom mandy eyqk? Bushhuuuuuk!

Ayien: Padan muker kaw! Saper suro cium aku! Aku bru bangon tydo bodo !

Abang sedare: Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

Huhu^^" He deserve tat !

Tuhh luhhh, kiss me fr wat ?! Haha !

And jyeah, currently talking to dearest astroboyy on the fone.

He keep calling me bohsia!

Diyer bapak ayam diyer tatawu !

Huhu ^^" bowiiiiiiiink dooohhhh !

Andand mr potek, go to clinic okay?

Check yr back bone okay(:

Huhu ^^ I got nothink much to sae.

Lets just end here okay?

Takeqaire dearest readers ! ((:

Dearest soulbabe, don worry.

everythink will be alright, insyallah(:

Awk adr sye, dan sye adr awk kay?

Iloveyou((:

Labels; imissyouu.

2009-10-15T01:29:00.002+08:00

Euu make me smile awak!

Hello dearest readers !

Sorry fr not been blogging lately.

Was busy wif studies. Biaser luh, da exam luh kans.

Huhu ! Had history paper just now.

And i managed to do all questions, alhamdulilah(:

But still gt no confidence if cn pass or not.

But nvm, atleast i tried.

So aftr skewl, met dearest soulbabe.

And jyeah, she went to my house and help me wif cooking.

Biaser luhh, ayien da laa tatawu masak. Huhu ^^

So fyie jer luhqk yg uat sumer.

Haha, cooked sardine! Endup bleyh luh, menjady jgk.

Den we had a talk, share stories and stuff.

I smile wen eu talk abt her.
I've got nothink to sae.

Wt else cn i do? Argue wif her?

No point dearest, tk gune lyn org mcm gytu.

I wanna giv in, i wan euu to go bck to hr and be lyke eu guys used to be.

But eu don wan, eu said i should'nt lose.

Mengala tk brmakne kyter kalah.

And this is not a competition that i hav to compete wif hr.

I had enough, im just gonna keep quiet.

Sooner or later she'll get tired herself and stop all of this nonsense.

Hate me fr all eu wn gurl. Read my lips, i don care.

Sae wadever euu wanna sae, as long as eu're happy wif it.

I don tolerate this kind of things cos i love my fren, i love fyie. Get it?

No point quarreling, eu still wont understand

Been studying wif Pet and Peggy this few days.
Gudgerl kn? Gee. Well of course! Ayien mmg gudgerl((:
Everynight we met and study, there's alwaes a funny things to laugh about.
I feel lyke im a clown. Both of them alwaes laugh at me wenever i did sth.
There are alwaes full of laughter.
However, those laughter do bring sadness.
I lost my wallet yesterdae.
Maybe because i run about and laugh the whole dae till i left my wallet somewhere.
I deserve tat. Careless me!
Alright, im gettiing tired.
There's maths paper 2 tomorrow.
Wish me gud luck Switcakes((:

Labels;i don care.

Bedok.

2009-10-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

Its fun miting euu.

The pictures above were taken on monday.
Went to bedok library to mit dearest ikkyn.
She accompanied me study and helped me in maths.
Thankiieww dearest cousin! Ily((:
Alot of things happened at bedok.
Make new fren with a small boy wen otw to bedok.
Jyeah, he was super duper cute.
He played games on my fone and we took pictures.
The top pictures; tats the cute boyy(:
Andand, there's 2 guys asked me fr number in bedok library.
Nonsense! Nga blaja pn nk number ke?
Huhu ! BUT i didnt giv((:
Cos why? Cos i don giv my number to no future guy.
Gee. And yeah, the third guy came up to me not to ask fr my number.
But to ask if i wan to join his sister gang.
Excusekemomiie? Do i look like a gangster?
Wrong person laaa deyyh -__-"

2009-10-12T11:50:00.001+08:00

Go imaginary prince, go away.

Hello dearest readers(:

Todaey went to skewl. Lyke duhh !
Gee. And had geography paper just now.

Wahhpeeeng ! Paper samer ngan paper yg mrs.lee giv luhqk seyy !

I do tat paper before. I mean not the same paper luhh.

But some of the questions seriously samer !

Shitards ! Andand im soo pisst off cos i didnt manage to complete the paper!

The question was like easy! But the tyme ! Tk cukop luhqk seyy!

I didnt do 3 pages of global warming due to the tyme!
Wen i was rushing doin the paper, Ayien sempat tgk kt classmate.
And guess wat? Most of them sleeping!
They all manage to finished up the paper! And tats not fair!
Why am i taking my own sweet tyme doing the paper?! Issshk ! Wake up nur'ain bte zoolkefli!

*sadface* and some question easy, cumer ayien jer tkbleyh uat.

Idk why i alwaes get distracted by my surroundings just now.

And i think bcos of that, i didnt manage to do all of the queastions.

And im sad! *sadface*

Sighs, let bygone be bygone.

No use being sad over the things tat had happened.

And yeah, tomoroow will be a better dae.

Ehh wait! Tomorrow? NO! I gt maths paper tmrw!

Issshk! Another unlucky dae. Sighs.

Idk luh. Im confident i will have hard tyme in doing maths paper tmrw.

Sighs, ayien redha jer luhqk kn. -_-"

But ayien seriously nid someone to giv me tuition uhh.
Tkbeyh mcm gynie uhh, ayien da laa slow!

Sighs, bleyh gone case siot klao tkdr org to tuitor me!

Alrite, i will be studying soon.

And yesterdae nyte before i went to bed, manage to otf wif dearest fyie.
And we've been talking about picnic.

Gee. I told her tat im craving fr going to picnic and seeing sunset.

Sumpah ayien crave to see sunset!

And ayien ask fyie if she's willing to go picnic wif me.

Huhu ^^ Picnic mcm kentalans kn?

Bt serious, once eu're out wif ur dearestfwen and have a gud tyme at the beach, sitting on the mat, enjoy eating, camwhoring, sharing stories, seeing sunset;

Awwwwwww, it will be awesoome !

And we even talk about our future boyfriends.

And fyie told me tat she wants a guy to ask her to be theirs wen seeing sunset.

And thats not fair! I was about to sae that too but she alrdy said it.

Awwwwww, nebermind.

And frankly speaking, there's never been any guy tat propose(ask fr std) me in real lyfe.

Weird uh? And i've been wondering how i'd react if i were to came across to that situation.

Huhu ^^ Paleng2 speechless dan blush jer luhqk. (^^,)

Gee, and i wan a guy to ask wen we're seeing fireworks!

And convince eu tat he can take gud care of eu and wont hurt eu.

Cute kn? Ayien tawuu cute!

Tapy adr ke laki se-romatic mcm gytu?

I don think so. Cos all of this hanyer wujud di movie sahjer, Btol tk?

Hahahks, enough of this BGR thingy.

Wait long long jer luhqk eyqk.

Im still 14, and still long wae to go.

A true love is wen eu mit that person FIRST.

Den make fwens, next best frens, den fall in love.

Den the rest leave it up to them luhqk.

Bukan cyberlove !

And i seriously find cyberlove mepeq.

Its just like eu're falling in love wif the guy eu donnoe, wif the guy eu nvr met.

Stakad knl2 kt tagged, msn, fs ,etc. gytu jer da bleyh jatoh cinte?

Tk ke tuh nonsense? Hahahaks, mcm phm.

Bt i experienced tat before luhqk. Huhu ^^

And i've made a deal wif illy; not to have boyfwen till sec 3.

Awwwww, isyallah bley(:

Cos im gud without guys(;

Alright, till here my little babies !

Labels; Its nice knowing eu, awk!

imissyouu.

2009-10-11T16:21:00.000+08:00

i swear i miss you boyy.

hello readers ! Well, im feeling better today. Every day is a new day. And today i've been thinking not to think of things that will make me feel upset . Fwens, leave me alone fr now. I don wan wish to talk to eu guys fr now. Kay, chiow!

Alright, lets talk about today's routine.Well, its sunday kn? Supposed to be family day kn?

Hahahks, bt i spent my family day at home with my lovesiblings!

Lovemummy not at home.

So yeah, abang2 and kakak ngan adeqnyer skali sumer lapar !

*laughs* And nk tawu aper?

Sumer carik mknan. And sadly, no mknan were found in the kitchen.

Gee. So kakak began to find any ingredients to cook.

Mcm phm kakak ayien, masak pn tk pass, nk step carik bende utk msk.

Well, kakaknyer tatawu msk.

Abang nyer adr experience luhh kan dlm bidang memasak nieyh.

Adeqnyer ! Fuuuuhh ! Lagy tk kuaser nk msk.

Hehe ^^ But ayien swear ayien adr tolong siket2 tawww !

Tolong kcao, tlg tgk, tlg amek gbr AND tlg mkn !

Gee, joking luhh. I did help them wif cooking.

I potong2 bawang! Tuh suda bagos kn? Menangis ayien dibuatnyer.

Hehe, and yeah, overall success luhh masakan kyter.

And dlm sekelip mater, mknan nyer pn sumer dabes dimakan oleh abg adam, abg aboy, kak awien and adeq ayien !

And yeah, Ayien currently nga revise geography.

Tmrw geo exam. So wish ayien gud luck kay?

Andand tmrw will be having dk training; 6pm-8pm.

Sighs, ayien tatawu nk gy ke tk.

Boleyh tu boleyh. Cumer masalh nyer tuh nk ke tk.

Hahahks, cos on tues adr maths exam.

Ayien blom prepare lagy. Byk topic kene revise.

Sighs, NIRA, tgk keadaan luhh kay. klao sempat sye gy. Insyallah(:

You can just sae sorry. Im sick of ur apologises.
In the end, eu will still do it again.
Don tell me i didnt warn eu.
Infact, i've been telling eu gus over and over agian.
And yet, eu still do it.
Fine, eu'll be fine without me.

2nd post.

2009-10-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

If only i can fly. I'll run away, leaving eu guys alone.

Hello readers. This is my second post. Idk why im feeling down right now. Alot of things that are bothering me now. I nid someone to talk to. I nid someone to listen to all of my problems. But the question is who? Who shud i go to ? I just donnoe who to turn to wen i nid a listening ears. Org yg ayien harapkn utk adr utk ayien, tkdr pn utk ayien. Org yg ayien tk prnh harapkn, tybe2 adr utk ayien. Strangers, thanks fr cheering me up eventho i donnoe eu that well. And ayien feel lyke crying. Ayien sedey sgt2. Ayien tatawu knaper )':

Tady ayien go temasek poly. Ader dk barat training kater kn.

And sadly, not much people came. Owh, nevermind.

Maybe they are all busy with their own stuff.

Im not gonna elaborate much about the training.

However, had great tyme with those kakak2.

sometymes i wonder why i have to care bout eu guys wen eu guys don even bother bout me.

Yes, people do change. And ayien benci wen things alwaes goes wrong.

Sighs, i nid a shoulder to cry on.

Do wadever eu girls wan. Im not gonna stop eu or control eu anymore.

Cukop luhqk sampai disini sahajer.

Labels; Ayien wynduu cikgu bobo ayien!

500 days of summer!

2009-10-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

It hurts to love someone hu cnt love you bck.

Hello dearest readers ! ((:

This are the pictures taken on thursday.

Went to skewl as per normal.

People keep teasing my voice.

Well, its okay. I like my voice.

Serak beb ! Bley duet ngan awieeee !

Huhu ^^ Bt some say my voice lyke lelaki luh, makcik luh, byk uhh -.-"

But hu cares? Huhu ^^"

Alwite, after skewl, went to art room to finish up my artwork.

Well, i get frustrated cos i nid to finish up the work by that day.

And yeah, ayien uat art case fastgame nyer case.

With the help of atiqah's idea, i finally finished up the artwork. Credits to atiqah !

Huhu ^^ Im not gonna talk alot about yesterda, so yeah, lets move on to to Fri[day] !

Labels; suare lelaki!

Alright, Friday went to skewl as per normal.

And again, areena didnt go to skewl wif me.

Da due hari areena tk gy skola ngan ayien.

Ayien di-abandoned oleh areena. sob sob.

Hahahks ! Okay, mly lsn we watched this movie called pensil.

Sedey! Andand areena udin nanges ! Hahahahks !

Hahahks, enough of skewl stories kay.

After skewl, went back home and changed.

Went fyie's crib to have some lunch.

Den headed to bugis to do some shopping.

Decided to watched movie, tapy kt bugis tkdr citer best2.

So headed to ochard and went to shaw house.

We watched '500 days of summer'.

Best best best ! Hahahks, i like((:

But people tht sat behing us are soo superduper irritating.

They keep kicking our seats.

Okay, i think they did that on purpose.

Yes, i noe tat we're noisy, but thats not the wae how euu ask others to keep quiet right?

Eu don have to keep kicking our seats.

And im glad that puma acerly stands up and sclod them!

Biarkan drg rasekn siket! hahahks !

The movie end around 1115.

And reached home nearly 12. I guess.

Bt naseb baek ibu tk tydo. Huhu ^^

Ibu wait fr ayien to come bck home. Weeee ! Sayaaaaank ibu ((:

Okay, just see the pictures below kay?

Ayien irritated ngan fairuz luhhh.

He pass my number to his fwens.

Den kwn diyer tk abes2 kcao.

Hais, abeyh fairuz nk mara2, maki2 ayien.

Ayien yg sepatotnyr mara diyer cos diyer kasi number ayien kt orq !

Ayien tk suker ! Isssshhhhk !

There's alot more pictures to upload tapy mase tk mengizinkn.
Ayien nid to get ready to go to sports complex fr dikir barat.
Today is the first practise, hope everythink will be fine. insyallah(:
So till here readers! (((:

Labels; stress wif exams.

i saww euuu !

2009-10-07T15:12:00.000+08:00

I saw euu. And imissyou.
Sakalalaa Bebeyyh !~

Hello cocolatecakes((:

I didnt go to skewl todae.

Was feeling very sick.

Fever was kinda high.

I gt no voice. And wenever i tried to talk loudly, my throat hurts.

Mama giv me a call in the mawnink and ask me if i've eaten breakfast.

I said no and told hr that im craving fr chicken porridge.

Since mama noe im having a fever, she told me to mit hr kt eunos cos bishan no chiken porridge.

First, i disagree cos don wn to go eunos.

Cos scared cekcek trnpk ngan org yg tk sepatotnyr dinmpk kans.

But aftr mama pujok2 , trpakse luh jumper mama cos da lamer tk jumper mama.

Wyndu sesangat.

Bus-ed to eunos.

Finally ate chicken rice. Huhu ^^

But sumpa, i didnt taste any chicken.

Cos nga saket tekak lah kans, mcm sia2 beli, tetap tk rase pa per.

And mama force mt to drink air asam wen i actualy ordered chrisanthemum tea.

Sighs, mama take my drink, & i took hers.

Aftr eat, ddk somewhere near eunos mrt station.

Had a long chat wif mama.

mama, now i noe why mama nanaqk alek uma.

Ayien sowiie fr keep blaming ur guy wen the problems lies on stepfather.

I realised that wenever eu're smiling, eu putting on a fake smile.

Iknoe there's tears behind those smile.

Why must euu be strong wen euu noe eu're not?

Da laaa, get rid of hyme and go to ur love one.

Im here to support euu kay?

Okaeyh, mcm phm akuu. But im serious.

I don wn mama to alwaes being threaten by stepfather. Sighs.

Ihateyouulaaboncet!

Den saw someone.

Omg! Just as wat i expected.

Firasat ayien mengatakan bahawe ayien akan terserempak diyer.

And its true!

Idk if the 'guy' is hyme. Bt lagy, firasat ayien mengatakan yg tuh diyer!

Andand his fwen! Look familiar luhh. Saw him in fs pic.

Pkai uniform *elo* *ura* plak tuh.

Skola diyer laa tuhh ! gee((:

And mama also agree. Mama says the 'someone' looks familiar ngan gbr yg ayien prnh ltk kt screensaver.

And i hope its btol luhh diyer.

Eu texted me. Asking if im standing at the traffic light. Yes, euu saw me. And i thinkk i saww eu. Bt eu lied and said it wasnt true. Eu said eu were in ur brother' s car. Why do euu hav to lie wen euu noe that i noe that the guy wearing the skewl uniform was eu? Sighs, its okay. The terserempak really made me happy. Not only bcos i get to see eu. But bcos euu text me. I've been waiting fr ur msg all this long aftr we broke up. And yeah, finally eu msg me. Alhamdulilah(: Imagine if we didnt get to see each other just now, will eu text me? No. Eu never will. Eu asked me if im still mad at eu. The ans is no. Tho im hurt, bt i'll never be mad at eu. Eu said eu're sorry and hope tat i will frgiv euu. The fact is, i alrdy forgiven euu. Long tyme ago, from the first dae eu hurt me wen i was wif eu till the last dae we get to be wif each other. I forgive euu boyy. Eu hope that i'll find much better guy den euu. But do euu tat im tired of finding one? Im tired of having in relationship anymore. Let love come by itself. No one is born to be stupid sayank. Everyone is born wif a brains. Its either euu use or euu dont. And by planing to break wif me just to see wat my reactions are or how do i feel is silly. You donnoe how i feel. And till now, eu're still here;in my heart. Sighs. I wont be able to get bck to eu cos i don wanna hurt euu no more. Im not a understanding gurl. I cnt undrstand euu and ur busyness. Im a gurl hu nid lots of love and attentions. I wish euu gudluck in finding gurl tat are muchmuchmuch more better den me okay? Euu takecare. Remember, eu're alwaes here; dlm hati ayien(:

Labels; its alwaes been you.

Fame !

2009-10-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

Happy bdaeyh nuratiqah bte nal((:

Awwwww, finally turn 14 ! Iloveyou bi !

Huhu ^^ youu noe im alwaes here fr euu kn dearest.

Don cry anymore kay? Cannot cry on ur special dae. Nnty da tk cuuuun lagy((:

Went to skewl wif no voice. Had sorethroat. And a little fever.

Well, todae had mother tongue exam paper.

I swear the paper was kinda hard. Especiall paper one !

Well, kn adr two choice kn? To choose either surat rasmi or dialog.

Slame nie slalu kluar surat rasmi ngan dialog. && Ayien alwaes do dialog.

And guees wt? tady tkdr dialog ! I was soo super duper blank !

Da laaa tk ingt format surat rasmi! Ishhhk ! Stress btol luhh-.-"

Den do karangan about kurang sopan santun makin menjadi-jadi di singapura.

Korang phm tittle diyer? Ayien tk phm. haha. Bt yet i still do tat title cos seem interesting.

And yeah, i like my karangan. Huhu ^^

Ayien told illy tat maybe ayien wont be first in class fr acade anymore.

Cos paper 2 tady pn quite susa seyy.

Sighs, lagy2 byler izad ngan wan asyek tnyr aper ans. Issshhhk !

Cikgu djohan tkdr jer, ayien da maken huru hara cos tatawu mcm maner nk uat. Hais.

Classmate as usual, asyek uat bising eventho its exam.

Was entertain by jerald's irritatingness.

Malang sunggoh naseb cikgu2 yg jage class kyter.

Class kyter sunggoh memeningkn lagy2 klao adr jerald. Gee ^^

Owh yarh! And happy bdae to jerald too! Same date as atiqah luhh ^^

Skewl ends around 1220.

Waited fr areena in the canteen fr so long!

Den me, areena,illy, puma, zura, fifie, Zuu headed to bishan junction 8.

Foodcourt, mini toons, library.

Met dearest bby.

Walk2 around j8 and finally decided to watch movie.

Ayien tknk cos nga broke.

And dearest gav me a treat! Awwww, sayaaaank diyer!

And we watched fame !

remember remember remember remember remember ...

Hahah! Fr those of eu hu hav watched, eu noe wat im saying *winks*

Awwww, im so in love wif marco(tatawu spell).

And yeah, diyer milik akuu kaey dearest? Gee ^^

Den went back home.

Otf wif khairul queenswae.

Suare kamu mcm pakcikpakcik yar? Huhu ^^

Owh yarh ! And my headache is gettiing worst.

My voice too ! Da bleyh duet ngan awie uhh. Hee !

If i walk, would eu run?

If im stuck, would eu come?

If i sae eu're the one, would eu believe me?

Labels; euu made my dae.

3rd post !

2009-10-05T17:59:00.000+08:00

how i wish euu were still mine.

Hello chocolatecakes !

Well, sorry fr not been blogging lately.

Was busy wif outings and studying.

Well, there's a previous post of my outing jalan raye wif dearest friends.

Todae had english exams.

And it was kinda easy. Alhamdulilah.

Harap2 ayien bley pass kay? This yr, ayien asyek fail english by one or two marks.

Hopefully i wont fail english fr SA this tyme.

I just love my class and my classmates!

Mase exam tady, sumer uat bising!

Lagy2 Jerald ngan Izad.

I nvr failed to put a smile on my face wen doing the paper.

Cos adr free entertainment per.

Classmates sumer ketawe wif Jerald's irritatingness!

Tady lepas exam, me, areena, atiqah and puma mit fyie around my blog.

had a little chat and we decided to play hide and seek.

Den play a game called alipom! huhu ^^

Korang tawu game tuh? Not much people noe especially atiqah, areena and puma.

Well, ayien tawu. Used to play wif bdk kallang.

Bt since da lamer tk maen, was abit blurr.

haha! Adr round tk menjady luhh seyy ! Huhu ^^

Bt nvm((:

Den headedbck home cos wanna study malay.

Besok exam melayu. Wish ayien luck kay? Ayien nk uat paper tuh nga hati yg senang((:

Insyaallah ^^

Okay, ayien skrg mawu mandddyy !

Den mawu blaja melayu.

Fr all bpsians and every other students who's having exams,

Goodluck kay? Uat btol2 tawuu !

Huhu ^^

Till here ! Sayaaaang sumer orq ! (((:

I feel sad wenever i think of euu. heyy, imissyou, i swear. Sometymes it hurts pretending to be strong wen acerly im not. Idk why i keep pretend to be okay wen im acerly a gurl hu fall easily. The fact is, im weak. Lemah sesangat. Byler pk2 balek, why am i doing this to eu, behaving in a rude wae wen i noe iloveyou? Wen he shared his problems wif me abt his gurlfwen, i just realise how much i hurt youu. Ego nyer psl, sampai kehilangan orq kyter sayang kn? Sighs, tkdr makne pn nieyh sumer. Ayien ckp nieyh pn sbb ayien tknk sedey lagy. Ayien wanna end here and stop thinking of euu anymore. Thanks kay? Ayien slalu ingat _____ .

Labels; im just a silly gurl hu alwaes been hurt.

2nd post !

2009-10-05T17:02:00.000+08:00

Nice raye outing wif euu guys((:

Went to jalan rayer wif dearest bpsians.

Andand myie and fyie jalan rayer wif us too !

Bdk yuying and Budak Bishanpark luhqk seyy !

Huhu ^^

Fifie, puma, Dzul, Dinar, Azura, Wan didnt came along as they gt other plan.
*sadsad*

But its okay, next yr jln rayer wif us kay? Kay canteq !

I was late. Fyie and myie waited.

Reached bishan junction 8 but forgt to bring fyie's rokok.

Fyie mati2 nk rokok diyer, so went back to my house and take hr ciggerette.

Den cab to areena's home.

Eat! And areena's mom keep laughing and tease me by making my high pitch voice!

Ishhhk ! Naughtyy uhh mama areena ! gee((:

Went to 6 or more houses. Cant really rmbr.

Alot of laughter, and i love taking pictures wif zul !

And Atiqah sae i vry slim. She sae she likes my body.Huhu ^^

Tapy ayien nk badan atiqah! Canteq luhh seyy !

Especially ur ____ ! *winks*

Took alot of pictures wif dearest them bt unfortunately the pictures are in areena's camere.
So yeah, pemilik gbr, tolong cepat-cepatkn sikit yerr?

Sye nk upload gbr nieeyyh! Hee !

Wen to kallang wif areena, fyie and atiqah.

Its areena and atiqah first tyme gg kallang.

And lepak at our usual place.

Talk2! Laugh2!

Den fyie hav to go home.

It was alrdy 12 am bt me, areena and atiqah don feel like gg hm so we still chill at there.

Share each other's problems.

We listening to their problems, i find that i shud appreciate wif wat i hav nw.

My problems are not as complicated as theirs.

Tho, mama doesnt alwaes come bck home, i still have siblings.

I still have my sexy sister and macho abang-abang.

I still have someone hu loves me, hu cud feed me wif foods everyday.

Im sad to hear ur problems. Don worry, euu guys have me((:

Aftr the long talks, me and atiqah decided to overnite at areena's hm cos don feel like going home.

reached areena's hm around 2 am.

Had a little chat again, and yeah, off to bed((:

The next dae, spent the whole dae at areena's house.

And went to kfc at j8.

And reached hm ard 7.

1st post.

2009-10-05T16:16:00.000+08:00

I miss taking pictures with euu guys.

This pictures were taken during media studies on fridae.

Me, illy and hadassha went to media studies to finish up our project.

And yeah, its done !

And that dae, i didnt talk to areena due to certain reasons.

Awwww, but we are now back as per normal.

Air yg dicencang tiada putus(:

Am i rite? Well, i think i am.

No matter how often we quarrel, we will still be best frens((:

liar.

2009-10-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

somehow ur promises are just a lie.

Hello readers((:

Lately ive been feeling a little down.

Idk wats wrg wif me. Sighs.

But somehow im disapointed in my fwens.

Im soo stress wif studies.

C'mon ayien, exam will be on mondae,

concentrate in class pls.

I tried to put away my problems aside.

No use thinking of it too much,

cos it will only make the matter worst.

Skewl as per normal.

And thankgod im early to skewl todae.

Had scie, eng, maths and cca period.

Todae was the last session of rugby.

And active on this last session.

Well, i didnt plae on the last few session due to laziness.

Wenever my opponent pull out tag from my belt, i will scream.

Wenever i make mistake iin playing rugby, i will laugh,

Funny luhh, wen think it thru, i regret fr nt turning up on the last few session.

Gee, its okay((:

Den had detention fr 3 hrs.

Was totally tired but the teacher don allow me to sleep.

Wenever i tried to slp, she will shure come up to me and ask me to do revision.

Sighs, wen im tired, my brain cnt function.

And wen my brain are not functioning, i cant study.

And wen i cnt study due to tiredness, i sleep.

But unfortunately, i cant.

So thru out the detention, i've been msging wif juf and khairul queensway.

Sis, imissyou.
There's no one i could turn to wenever im feeling down.
There's no one i could vent my anger wif wenever im angry.
And now there's no one to accompany me eat at home wenever im hungry.
Well, euu noe euu owe me sth *winks*
Takeqaire lovely, iloveyou((:

Somehow ur words keep lingering in my mind.
Labels;Shattered heart.

I got a name.

2009-09-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

Altho its different now, eu're still here somehow

I didnt go to skewl todae.

I wanna thank abg alip fr waking me up,

But sorry, i still cant go to skewl cos its alrdy late,

Well, i can acerly go to skewl,

But i noe im gonna be late again.

I don wan om to nag again.

So i decided to just stay at home.

Sleep, do art, sleep.

Den mit areena, puma and fyie.

Well, we do art together.

Not really, areena was busy listening to music and revising history.

Well, had great tyme wif them.

Had so much laughter.

Areena khairudin- areena udin((:

Ayien zoolkefli- Ayien efli((:

Huda ismail- huda mail((:

Fyie razali- Fyie ali((:

Cool name uh? gee((:

Thru out the day, we keep laughing at areena.

haha, anak udin mmg gytu((:

Well, had so much laughter till areena cut my hair !

Kuwangajar kaww udin ! Hmph !

Besok revenge ! *evil laugh*

Den went bck home.

Well, fyie ali followed me go home.

Its been long tyme we didnt spent much tyme wif each othr kn?

Well, there's alot of things we shared; feelings, secrets, stories and manymore!

Don worry switheart, i will nvr giv up on euu,

Akuu akn lead kaww to the rite path aites?

Cheyymaaak! mcm phm ini pmpn!

Pmpn2 nieyh pn, adr name. btol tk fyie?

Idk wat to sae.

Well, its not abt similarities.

Gurl, yesh, euu and me were nvr the same.

We are not the same. I can agree to that.

Idk why we cant get along. And i knoe eu may agree to tht too.

Im sorry if she changed bcoz of me.

I have no intention of making euu and hr frenship apart.

But no matter how much euu hate me,

i nvr had the same feelings euu had fr me.

Hate me fr all euu wn.

Im doing this fr ur fwen's sake.

Sorry, i cnt take it anymore.

Why must it alwaes be me tat euu hav to blame?

Sighs.

Okay, now i don feel lyke typing.

Andand, now i cn eat((:

Da tk muntah lagy! Weeeee ~

Okay, till here.

Takeqaire chocolatecakes ^^

Am i that bad?

Labels; im still missing euu.

If i were you.

2009-09-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaa Bebeyyhh !~

Hello chocolate cakes!

Well i was late to skewl again.

Reahed skewl around 9.

Waited fr om till 9.30.

Om checked my bag. He thought i smoke.

Den he ask me why i bring perfume to skewl.

He said i smoke thats why bring perfume. Wth -.-"

Im not a smoker okay.

So gonna go detention on thurs. Sighs.

Idk wats wrg wif me lately.

I didnt eat much has i gt no appetite.

Im hungry, but whenever i buy food, i alwaes end up not finishing them all.

And i force myself to eat cos i loss alot of weight.

Unfortunately, i keep vomitting wenever i force myself to eat.

And i feel sick.

Headache is getting worst. Sighs.

Ibu: Awk pregnant ke? Asyek muntah jer byler mkn.

Ayien: huh? Maen pn tk prnh, nk pregnant aper.

Ibu: maner laa tawu. Pregnant tapy tk maen. *laughs*

Ayien: Wakluu luh -.-"

Areena want me to go to clinic. Sorry, im scared luh going to clinic.

Its okay, i'll be fine.

I have to take gud care of myself.

Exams are just around the corner.

I wont be blogging much this few days.

If got tyme, i blog luhh kay? Wanna study luhh((:

Well, nothink much happen today.

After skewl, supposed to stay bck to do media studies but end up nvr go cos i cnt find hadassha.

Im soo gonna kill her. Gee((:

Well, go bck home, sleep.

And now doing art.

Sighs, tired luhh seyy)):

Sorry tawfiq, i cnt accompany euu watch movie.

Trlaluu pnt sgt.

I think i end here first luhh kay?

takeqaire lovelies ! ((:

Labels; sick.

i'll be fine switheart(;

2009-09-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

No point thinking of things that had happened.

Its too late too regret.

Now i understand the meaning of love.

Thanks((:

Im begining wif a new life.

I don wanna think bout euu anymore.

I'll soon forget bout euu even if i noe i cant.

I've deleted ur number, i've deleted ur pictures & i've deleted ur msges.

Sooner or later, im shure eu wont exist in my heart anymore.

Don worry soulbabe and bestfren, i deserve it.

To my dearest sister,

Have a safe journey.

Slamat gy dan slamat alek kaeyh?

I'll be waiting fr ur return!

Saayaaaank kaww byk2(:

Im just like every other gurls hu nid love&attention.

Once again, happy birthdae.

L.O.A

2009-09-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaa Bebeyyhh !~

hello chocolatecakes(:

Todae didnt go out.

Stay at home and help awin wif her india stuff.

I was superduper mad at mama bcoz of some stuff.

Was super duper busy helping awin wif hr clothes, ironing hr clothes, washing hr clothes.

Gee. Good kn? Well ofcourse, jahat2 akuu pn, i still help my sister((:

Well,we did rush to amk to bought awin's luggage bag.

Last min cnt find adam's luggage bag.

Yerhh, den they like blaming me cos im the last person to use the luggage bag.

But endup bought sth else.

Sighs, sorry. Idk wat to post.

Nothink much happen todae except fr spending my whole dae wif siblings.

Idk why this feelings come back again.

Idk why i feel down again.

Sighs, i just feel lyke crying,again.

Idk how long i can keep this feelings to myself.

Somedae, somehow, im gonna fail again.

Imissyoutoo.

2009-09-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaa bebeyyhh !~

Hello chocolatecakes.

Todae woke up around 7.

Thanks to abg Alip. He msg me and ask where am i.

Pheeew! Luckily i was awaken by his msg, if not, will be late fr skewl again.

Reached skewl, didnt get to take morning pledge as i was late.

Went back to class and saw cikgu ^^

Cikgu: Ayien! Asyek lambat jer.

Ayien: Bangon lambat luhqk cikgu *sadface*

Cikgu: Ah! Bgn lambt! Smlm tydo kul bwaper?

Ayien: 2. hehe ^^"

Cikgu: Tuh luhqk. Nie mesti bbl ngan yan sampai tydo lmbt.

Ayien: CIkguu! Maner ader!

Cikgu: *laughs*

This is wat i don like!

See! Becoz of that stupid wallpaper, it happen this wae!

Sighs. Idk why i feel sleepy this morning.

Had history first lesson.

& through out tat lsn, i've been sleeping in class.

Den had malay lsn,

SIGHS! Exams are just around the corner.

Only had 1 more week to study. Sighs.

Andand cikgu wont be around nextwk, he got reservice.

Sighs, boring laa gynie klao malay lsn!

Den had recess, and BLABLABLA.

Skewl ended.

Met the sec2 netballers in the foyer.

& again, didnt go fr training.

Well, all sec2 didnt go fr training.

Must understand lurh. Sec 2 wanna study.

Nxt two wks exam alrdy, streaming yr somemore.

Much more important den netball training.

Went bck home.

Sleep till 5 pm.

Den read malay novel.

I cried reading the story. haha! Lame sia akuu!

But im serious! So touching! And so sad!

haha, okay, shuddup ayien!

Gee. couldnt read anymore cos the story was like super super sad.

So put aside the book and finish upmy art.

Well, i didnt even strt anythink cos i've been absent from art lesson fr two wks.

Tuh luhh. Tk abes2 absent on wed jer kn!

Alot of subjects i nid to catch up;

Maths, Science, History and Geography.

Alot of homework i nid to do;

Science, maths,malay,english and art.

I wanna thank abg alip fr listening to my problem.

'you can do that. But you hurt urself even more. Trust me.'

Thanks eyyh((:

noww, i don wanna think about things that keep bothering me or making me sad.

I wanna be happy, just like every other gurls out there.

I wanna put my problems aside and concentrate on my studies.

2 more days.

Awien gonna go to india fr educational thingy wif her ite fwens and teacher.

On sundae. Sighs, im going out wif frens but she going india.

I wish i could sent hr to airport. Sighs.

Noor haszuin bte zoolkefli,

akuu tgk mcm maner dulu kay? Klao sempat, aku anta.

Huhu ^^

She ask me where did i put abg's lugage bag.

I swear idk where did i put it.

Mentang2 aku last touch, abeyh aku kene carik! Pfft.

okaeyh luhqk. I think i end here first kay?

Gudnyte honeyhs(:

Sighs, for once, im not gonna find euu.

If euu nvr find me, i wont find euu.

A fonecall would change everythink syqk.

Labels; 2 more daes.

Ihateyou.

2009-09-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hello Chocolatecakes.

I've been feeling down lately.

Idk wats wrong wif me.

Go to skewl wif a pair of swollen eyes.

Bazil keep asking me if i cried yesterdae nyte.

Hanyer fyie dan areena jer yg tawuu.

Thanks guys fr trying to cheer me up.

&& thanks fyie fr the doughnuts euu bought fr me.

I hav to put on a smile eventho im not feeling happy.

Aris: Ayien, klao cikgu tnyr kaw ngan yan adr pa per ke tk, ckp tk taww.

Ayien: Aper kaw mepeq? Mmg tkdr pa per per..

Aris: yer, ckp kaw kakak angkt yan. Cikgu confiscate fone yan. Den adr gbr kaw as wallpaper fone yan. Den cikgu pk kaw mataer ngan diyer.

Ayien: Huh ?! mepeq nyer korang!

Can you guys believe that? Yan put my picture as his fone wallpaper! Aper nieyh? Mepeq laaa.

Benci seyy prangai satu satu!

Zura sae cikgu finding me. Find cikgu in his classroom bt mr ismail said he's in his staff room.

Den decided to see hyme on CCA period.

Den saw hyme in the canteen.

Ayien: Cikgu cari sye?

Cikgu: *took out yan's fone from his pocket*. Awak tgk nieyh. *show me the picture of me.*

Ayien: Sighs, sye tatawu luh cikgu.

Cikgu: Awak bercinte ngan diyer?

Ayien: HUh?! Maner ader? Eeeee!

Cikgu: Tkmo kay. Sye jage awk selagy awk kt skola nieyh. jgn nk bercinte ngan diyer(cikgu sae somethink lyke this)

Ayien: yer, sayer tawuu. Sye pn tknk ngan diyer.

Cikgu: Gy kasi balek fone nieyh kt yan. Sye tk dpt jumper diyer nnty.

Ayien: Huh?! Tk nkk laa. Suro saper2 kasi. Sye tknk kasi pn.

Cikgu: Kasi lerr. Pass diyer alek. *giv the fone to me*

Ayien: Kay.

And euu noe wat i did? I delete my picture on his fone. Biar kaww raserkan siket.

Pasal kaww, nnty cikgu ingat akuu mataer kaww! Stop it siak perangai.

Yan apologise to me.

Sighs, fortunately mit fyie and mymie.

Thier jokes, laughter, smile, really cheered me up.

And areena, euu cheered me up too.

Youu and ur tonggeklingers.

Sighs, i have nothinkk much to sae.

All i knoe, im gonna keep my distance away from certain people.

I had enough.

Sorry if i wont treat euu normally from now onwards.

And guess wat?

I kept crying wenever im feeling sad.

I just don feel lyke sharing to anyone, but i knoe i cant bottle up my feelings.

Studies, friends, family, ehem, everything, making me stress each tyme.

Studies; I have alot of things to catch up on. I don think i could make it.

Friends; Change fr the better.

Family; sometymes i wanna make you guys the place where i could share my problems to. But i knoe that euu guys were all busy wif ur own things.

Ehem; No comment. Eu are not helping.

Im getting closer to exes.

They keep msg to ask how's my dae.

Infact, they the only one hu i started to count on.

I expected euu guys to be there fr me. Not them.

And gurl, don keep putting the blame on me fr her change.

Ask urself why is she behaving this way.

Pointing fingers is not gonna help.

Sugarcane, i think i end till here.

Takeqaire(:

I nid flowers to cheer me up.

I nid chocolates to make my dae.

I nid doughnuts wenever im feeling angry.

But youu, i nid euu to be wif me alwaes.

but iknoe you wont. Thanks.

Labels; I don care anymore bby.

No use talking to youu!

2009-09-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaaa Bebeyyhh!~

Hello Chocolate cakes((:

Sorry fr not been blogging this few days.
had no tyme due to rayer and bbysit.

Check time:12.10.

Well, im not sleepy yet. Reached home todae around 9.30.

Yesterday, i didnt go to skewl cos wake up around 12 pm!

Den decided to go to aunt's house to accompany sis bbysit.

Dyyh was there too, but she hav to go home.

No one will be taking care of the kids.

So decided to volunteer to takecareof those 3 adorable kids.

And i have to ponteng skewl again.

Sighs,sorry. had no choice coz aunt is giving birth.

So take care of them till todae!

Huhu ^^"

ANDAND Aunt gave birth to newborn bby!

MUHD ARSYAD BIN AZMAN!
Gee((: I was supposed to visit her wif those 3 kids but i have to go home cos i have skewl tomorrow. Sorry.

Anyway, congrats yarhs!

nmpk nyer akuu kene bbysit 4 bdk luh nieyh klao cik nk kluar! haha!

On my way home,

recieve a msg from areena.

Areena: Ayien! Akuu ngan fyie sedare! Cayer tk?

Ayien: *laughing*

I cant stop laughing. Den there's this 2 typical mly guys was laughing at me.

Guy 1: Alahaii, cute nyer diyer ketawe.

Guy2: *Laughing*

So i look at them and they were lyke laughing at me!

So i giv the f*ck face and the guy 1 ask me alot of question.

Guy1: Name saper? Bleyh tawu?

Ayien: *look at the persoon beside me*

Guy2: Kyter bbl ngan awak luh. Bkn ngan sebelah awk.

Guy1: *laughs* Arha. namer saper?

Ayien: Hmm, ayien.

Guy1: Ayien cnteq eyh?

Ayien: *didnt ans anythink*

Guy1: Alaaa, tkkn sombong kot? Uat kwn bleyh?

Ayien: *shook head*

Guy1: Asal tk bleyh? Bleyh uh?

Ayien: *still shook head*

Guy1: *laughs* Da adr matae eyh?

Ayien: *nod head*

Guy1: Alaaa, tkper luh. Mataer ngan abg. Break suda ngan diyer

Guy2: Siak jer kaww! *laughs*

Guy1: umor braper?

Ayien:14.

Guy1: Owh, boleyh laa tuh!

guy2: Aper yg bleyh?

Guy1: Bleyyh kwn2 ngan aku! *laughs* Nk gy jumper mataer eyh skg nieyh?

Ayien: huh? Tk, nk alek.

Guy2: owh, abeyh tady gy maner?

Ayien: bbysit.

Guy1: blok aper?

Ayien:huh? 200+

Guy1: owh, nk kat samer uh ngan diyer. laen kali klao dtg tamp agy kol abg kay?

Mcm gytu uh drg bbl2.they make jokes sampai akuu ketawe!

The guy ask fr my number, but i nvr giv.

Syg seseorq peyh psl((:

Hmm, den reached hm, watched singapore idol.

Abg: Lemao uh nieyh helmet boyy!

Ayien: Saper?

Abg: Mataer kaww uh! Da laa rambot mcm helmet!

Ayien: Oi! Farhan Shah bkn helmet boyy okaeyh! jealous ckp jer uh.

Abg: Tkdr mase nkk jealous ngan bdk helmet.

Ayien: tak baek seyy. Handsome perh diyer. Faizal pn handsome!

Abg: Ahyer, sumer kaw suker, sumer lemao.

Ayien: Shut up eu!

Abg and i quarel just bcoz of them! Adr ke patot diyer ckp farhan helmet boyy?!

Ishhk!

Da laa, i end here first kay?

I will be uploading pictures of bbysit soon,

Now no tyme(:

Gudnyte chocolate cakes ^^

Im tired of this silly games.

Sumpa boyy, akuu penat.

Labels; feelings dead.

Slamat ari rayer!

2009-09-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

Wen will this end? Im tired bby..

Sakalalaa Bebeyyh!~

Harlowww people!

First of all, i wanna wish all muslim people,

Slamat Hari Rayer!

Huhu ^^" Klao adr sala silap ataw TERkurang ajar ker,

forgive kaey? Huhu^^"

Okay! Lets start!

We visited a few houses.

Andand not much collection i guess. Gee^^

Kay, im too tired to type!

Just see the pictures below kay?

I swear i had fun mitting this people! ((:

Ini sedare akuu! Gee(: Long tyme no see!

Maken handsome && maken tinggi!

Currently msging wif Shahrul.
Isshkk! Slenger btol lurhh ex akuu nieyh!

Shahrul: Bie, wat time u tido?
Ayien: huh? Owh, enta. why?
Shahrul: Nk otp.
Ayien: owh, nnty2 luhqk kay. Cos nga blog nieyh.
Shahrul: Huh?
Ayien: Adoii! Tkdr pa per luh. Nga maen lappy. klao nk otf, otf nnty2. Cos nga busy.
Shahrul: kae.
Sighs, ayien mls luh nk lyn diyer.
maser pagy2 pn, orq nga tydo, diyer sebok kol org suro bgn cos da rayer!
Da laa irritating! Pgl orq byie plak tuhh!

Noww chat wif Khairul and Helmi.
Naseb baek adr drg, klao tk, bowiink seyy dibuatnyer!

Isshhk! Ayien nga binget ngan seseorq uhqk!
Adr ke patot syq akuu tk bagy akuu majok?
Lerrr! Bleyh mati akuu! Maner bleyh.
orq kn kuat majok. Abeyh nk suro orq stop majok plak!
*sadface*
Den now both of us tk msq. Isshk!
Tk abes2 gado taww! Benci uhqk gynie!
Sedeyh tawww! Sighs, if only euu noe hw i feel ))':

Labels; Forgive&forget.

No differents laa.

2009-09-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaa Bebeyhh!~

Hello honeyhs!
Todae went to skewl as per normal.

Infact, skewl ends early todae. No reading period!

Den decided to myt fyie and mymyie!

Went to bishan library before miting them.

Ishhhkk! Ayien geram lurrh ngan illy&areena!

Tak abes2 kcao orq tawww! Leha, bapak korang lurrhh!
Huhu^^ Illy siow! ketawe mcm orq mati laki. Haha! Daa sot uh itu mina!

Huhu^^ illy, klao bacer, tag okae? haha!

Den fyie called and say da sampai.

Soo we go to to mac and mit both of them.

Awwwww, ayien first tyme npk mymyie.

And she was kinda cute^^"

Kecoh seyy! Andand sumpah ayien suker ____ diyer!

BOOOOOOM laa siyooooll!

Huhu^^ Nice miting euu lovely((:

We shall mit again kay ari rayer nnty?

Must follow tawww!

Den went back home around 2. Cos ayien nid to go out wif mama&sis.

Went back hm and waited fr sis to come bck hm.

Ayien trtydo lerr byler tgu awien!

Ishhhk! den endup she asked me to mit her atJ8!

Huhu^^ Ayien lmbt. Pdn muker diyer kene tgu!

Den met mama.

Ayien super irritated lurrh. Mama bring along someone wif her.

I donn lyke! Den awien said she take baju rayer den tros bla cos nid to mit her fren.

Takbaek kn diyer nk tglkn ayien ngan mama ngan ____.

Through out the dae, ayien uat muker.

&&& Guess wat?!?!

Ayien jumper HYDIR luhh weyyy!!!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW,

sooooo ther super duper hawt, cute, handsome!

ishhhkk! mimpi manis laa mlm nieyh!

Gee((:

Den bump into myra.

Den waited fr bus to go to tpy to mit ibuu to buy some stuff.

On the way to tpy rite,

saw this one typical matrep.

Mcm knl, cos prnh npk diyer kt kallang.

He look at me, i look at hyme.

Den he smile, and i was like giving hyme my fake smile.

Idk luh if thats the guy that i used to see in kallang.

thats why nvr smile sincerely.

Skali the guy stop at kallang!

Btol lurhhh tuhh diyer! Isshhk! sia2 jer seyom bedeq2!

Huhu^^"

Den reached tpy, bought stuff den went home.

And now, here i am; Home sweeet home((:

Was kinda full acerly, eat alot.

Ayien sad lurrrh cos ayien cant fast alrdy.

Tmrw last dae but ayien cnt fast!

Isssshhhk!

Eyyy! Ayien cant wait fr hari rayer!

Weeee !!! Wanna eat alot!

Eyy! Ayien wanna pierce cheeks and eyebrow.

But adr jer taww orq yg menghalang!

Issshhk! Please laa korang!

Akuu nk pierce jgk. Nice lurhh weyy!

you noe wat?

I just don care bout euu anymore.

Tkdr makner jer nieyh sumer.

Stupid-dumbdumb!

labels; i wanna end this as soon as possible.

Its not that easy boyy.

2009-09-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

Shoo! Off euu go jerk!

Sakalalaaa Bebeyyhh!~
Hello Honeyhs! huhu^^

This mawnink, i was awaken by Hairul's wake up call.

Isshkk! I was having fun, sleeping and snoring like a piq!

But this guy wake me up!

Hoho^^ But thanks to him, if not im gonna be late fr skewl.

So drag myself to the toilet.

I was feeling a little uneasy.

Huhu^^

JENG JENG JENG!

Den found out that i couldnt fast because of some gurls stuff!

YESSSSHH! I've been waiting fr this moment!

Hahaaa! ((:

Den took my own swit tyme to get ready to go to skewl.

Gee((:

Well, i was actually late.

Reached skewl ard 7.30 and wanted to go in the hall but HP stop me.

So stand outside the hall and waited fr the flag raising to end den im allowed to go in.

Had eng, Scie, Maths and CCA period.

I swear through out those 3 lessons,

i cant seems to concentrate much as my tummy hurts.

I had stomach cramp luhh!

This is why i don like to have red light on weekdays!

Illy and i get a chocolate bug! huhu^^

Didnt do rugby fr CCA period.

Sat in canteen and play game on areena's fone.

Saw yan wif his new hair style.

His hair looks gud but somehow the hairstyle don suits hyme.
Funny luhh! And wenever i walk past hyme,

he would stop and sae hie.

Ishhhk!! Irritating lurhh!

Skewl ends and wen fr detention.

Was sleeping fr 1hrs and was awaken by abg Alip's call.

Abg Alip: Hello! kt maner?

Ayien: Huh? Owh! Hello! Kt skola. Adr detention.

Abg Alip: Detention?! *laughs* Baek sgt luh tuh sampai kene gy detention!

Ayien: haha, aper luh. Abg kt maner?

Abg Alip: Kt YCK. Im dropping at bishan. Ingatkn nk jumpe ayien since da lamer tk jumper. But skali bdk tuh adr detention plak!

Ayien: Haha! Awwww, sorry. I end ard 4 gytu.

Abg Alip: Owh! Saper2 adr kt saner?

Ayien: Ayien ngan Illy.

Abg Alip: Haha! Illy pn kene?! kkaey, abg jln2 kt bishan dulu. Den nnty dabes, msg abg kay.

Ayien: haha. Okaeyh!

Den went back to sleep and aftr a few minutes,

receive a msg from Abg Alip.

Abg Alip: Ain... abg just meet u gerl other time. Abg adr bende nk uat kt uma. Pape text me. Kalau urgent, call jer:D

Ayien: Haha. Okae. Lagypn ayien abes lmbt . Make shure mit some othr tyme kay? haha! Abg pn, pape just text me. Takeqaire!

Sighs, so didnt get to mit hyme. Da lamer tk jumper diyer luhh seyy!

&& da lamer diyer tk kcao ayien! huhu^^ AREEEEENAAAA! *winks*

Through out the detention, muggy was super duper horny!

Hahah! Im gonna kill euu muggy!

Detention ends and mit fyie at playground near my house.

She was in bad mood.

Awwwww soulbabe, don worry dearest.

The jerk don deserve euu.

Euu deserve much more better guy.

& hopefully its not badboyy type.

Gee. Cheer up sayaaank! Im here! Ily((:

Chat&chat. Laugh&laugh. Sing&sing.

Had soo much fun mitting euu bby!

Awwww, don worry. I'll mit hyme soon(;

Den accompanied areena break-fast.

Talk & laugh. Hmph! Tagteam tk guner uh korang!

Den mama came and give me a shock!

She came and was like huging me and kissing me!

Ishhhk! malu laa ayien ^^"

haha!

Den headed back home.

Tomorrow going geylang wif mama and sis!

WEEEEE!~

Gurl, i don mind if euu wanna prank call tat jerk.

But why use my name?

Sighs.

Its okaeyh. Its all over.

bby, idk. Im just waiting fr the rite tyme.

Labels; Dress&high heels((:

2009-09-16T13:58:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaa Bebeyyh!~

hello Honeyhs(:

Im now at home revising maths and Geography.

I didnt go to skewl todae as i gt no mood.

Im soo bored):

Im sorry areena, im just too tired. Studies really made me stress.

&& netball, sighs. I just feel like quiting.

& im bored.

Fone no p8):

Areena, Fyie, awien,dzul, i cnt rply ur msg coz my p8 loww, sorriie):

&& Dzul, akuu tk dtg skewl coz pnt okae!

Bkn sbb nk skip detention!

Detention akuu bsk, not todae(:

I had a nightmare yesterdae night.

Sighs.
Idk why im easily get tired this few daes.

Awwww, andand im hungry):

Shud i fast? I think i shud.

Coz at home also no food.

Luckily sis told me that she'll be going home later.

Phheeew!

If not i will be break-fasting alone again later on.

Sighs,

4 more daes to Hari Raye.

I cant wait to eat alot of cookies!

I wanna eat ketupat! Rendang!

Whohooo! Nice!

Haha,

But im not shure if this year celebration gonna be fun.

Ayah told me tat he will be bringing us to batam to celebrate ari raya.

Sighs, just like last year.

I don wan cos i prefer celebrate it here.

Don wanna leave mama alone like last year.

haha!

Areena! Im looking foward to raye celebration wif our fwens!

This tyme organize btol2 eyh?!

I smack ur butt bru tawu ^^

Huhu ^^" Wanna bring fyie and nyza along!

And hopefully there's no 1t1.

I don wanna see his face.

Awww, euu noe hu *winks*

Im missing alot of people here;

Abg Alip, Ali, Hady, Pamela, Teeyah, Ninie,

Daniel, Aus, Juf, yahye, Wan, Nonett,

Zaid. Farhan and Nyza and manymore!

Its been long time we didnt contact wif each other.

Dyhh, Ikkyn, Firdauz, Danny, Yus,

Wan, Raudah, Rabiah,

Kak shidah, Fazli, Fitri & Arul.

Cousins, imissyou guys.

We shall mit on hari raya yarhs?

Hopefully our parents wont show attitude on Raye.

I really hope they will be in a good terms.

Alright people, I think im gonna end here.

Ayien wanna sleep lurrhh.
Tired! huhu ^^"

Labels; Preety smile & makeups(:

i don fancy her, gurl.

2009-09-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

Go get a life, mf.
Sakalalaa Bebeyyhh !~
Hey lovelies!
First of all, i would like to make an announcement.
Fr those of euu hu are seriously in pain seeing my blog due to the colourful font i have here, euu are allow to leave((:
Euu noe hu im talking to *winks*

Well, lets get back to today's routine.
had lessons as per normal.
& guess wt? Im starting to love maths eventho im not gud at it.
& i love doing graph. Huhu^^
Some improvement there.
Well, i really hav to work hard to pass as many subjects fr SA2.
Tis yr streaming yr luh seyy!

Today, went to detention fr 3 hours wif illy and pet.
And mira was ther too.
Well, it supposed to be 3 hours but somehow the teacher shoo us away and dismiss us early.
Thank goodness cos im bored to death in the detention room.
Den went back home.
Den had chicken curry fr break-fast.
Fall asleep while waiting fr bro to come back.
And its been 3 days my sis didnt go home.
Where could my irritating lovely sis be?

Sighs, netball really giving me pressure.
Im tired going to netball training.
Andand im getting darker and darker.
Days by days, my skin colour will just be as dark as charcol!

Areena;

Thanks fr being there fr me wen there's ups&downs.

Thanks fr asking wats wrong wif me wen im keeping quiet.

Thanks fr cheering me up wen im down.

And thanks fr making me smile wen im sad(:

Its wonderful knowing eu and having a BF like euu.

Awwwwww, euu're soo the super duper adorably kiyut((:

Soulbabe;

Thanks fr tolerating my nonsense thru out the year i've known eu.

We had nvr been closed before.

I appreciate every single things euu did to make me smile.

Tho i may drive eu insane sometimes,

but i love having euu around wif me.

We shall mit soon and spent our time together again.

Imissyou((:

Illy;

Euu made me smile and laugh wenever eu make a silly jokes.

Im happy being wif euu as euu nvr fail to make me smile.

How i wish we could spent more time wif each other

and share our probs wif each other.

keep rocking on gurl!

bby;

Iloveyou.

Things might be different from wat we wanted.

im trying to stop being stuborn and egoistic.

I wish i could just let it out wat i've been keeping in.

but idk how to put it in words.

I wish i cud mit euu and spent my first dae wif euu.

Just to let euu noe tat i nvr regret loving eu.

Hanye kaww yq satuu((:

Euu guys brighten up my life and make my day.

I never could imagine living in this world without euu guys by my side.

Iloveyouu(:

Sighs.

2009-09-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

Its fun having euu around wif me(:

Sakalalaaa Bebeyyhh!~

Finally, blogger are now not showing attitude towards me.
I can now uplaod pictures((:
Well, idk why im feeling restless.
Alot of things tat i've been thinking of.
I would like to share it wif eu swithearts,
but somehow i just feel lyke keeping it all to myself.
No one could understand this problematic gurl's position.

This date supposed to be a happy moment fr me.
But somehow i just don find it any differents.
Sighs, its never been the same anymore.

fwen, i knoe eu're not happy of wat i've been telling eu.
& idk if i've made the rite decision.
But iknoe im happy wif the decision i've made.
I'm in love wif hyme.
Cuberlaa phm isi hati aku. Sighs.

Labels; i'm disapointed in you.

2009-09-13T15:23:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaaa Bebeyhh!~

'Fake nia~ nvm. Fyie is bragging abt u & im jealous sbb aku tk dpt buleh brag ttg kau like how she is.. haha!'

'Hello syg! Hahah. jkjk je leh. Blh knl2?'

'Ayien, bayanganmu amcm?'

'Ayien, asl lost sampai senyap?'

'Ayien peyh pipi sye cubet dulu'

'teddybear, mataer awak tknk awak!'

Hello ChocolateOreoCheesecakes!

huhu^^ Blogger are bitching wif me. I cnt upload pictures!

Im gonna talk abt yesterdae nite convo wif this one guy.

Im soo superduper irritated wif this guy.

&& i wont pick up a private no again. Sighs.

The guy was superduper horny.

Adr ke patot diyer mintk aku ****?! Tk btol kn?

Kenal pown tidak! Ishhhk! geram tawuu!

Euu get the wrong number and the wrong gurl to ask fr!

Now currently chatting wif Areena, Fyie, Irin and Zacky.

haha. Nth much happens todae.

And im soo irritated wif stepfather. Tk abes2 dkt ngan akuu.

Hmmm, Areena and fyie, thks fr cheering me up.

Okaeyh, im blank. hahah!

Till here. Takeqaire Lovelies!

Im still loving euu bby.

Dendeng laa Siyool!

2009-09-11T16:25:00.001+08:00

Its amazing going out wif euu guys

Sakalalaaa Bebeyyh!~

'Ayien, knaper? kaw tk prnh wonder ker?'

'Haha! pakai beep trbalek!'

'tak abes2 mintk duit laa adeq nieyh'

'kaw kt maner?'

'Ayien! Suare stop it eh!'

'Asal kaw makan gelap? Mcm anuar sia. Tapy diyer lagy gelap.'

'Kesian, tatwu macam maner nk kopek ayam.'

'Ayien! Mintk Juf dendeng!'

'Ayien, kaw biseng laa siyool!'

'Spongebob laa xiyaaal'

'Minahrep!'

'Gy tukar kaw peyh bag lerr'

'Lincahh uh amek gbr'

'Jln sebelaah ngan juf luh'

'Knaper euu suker uat decision tat eu noe tat it can make eu regret? Go on, msg diyer'

Harloowww Chocolate oreo cakes!

Woke up in the mawnink and drag myself to the toilet.

Had match with River Valley High School.

Areena was waiting fr me in the bus stop, reached skewl and BLABLABLA!

In bus, listen to music and areena kept asking me this one random question.

Yes areena, aku slalu wonder knaper. But im okaeyh wif it.

reached there, warm up and stuff and game strt.

Wen its tyme fr me to play, i was totally in rush tat i wore the bip wrongly!

I can here tat areena was laughing at me!

SHITARDS! Sooo damn paiseyyh!

Rkycia vomit. Haha! Same like me last year sia.

Last year, went to tat skewl fr match i vomit there. Haha!

there's this one chinese guy in the skewl.

He was queing and waitiing fr his turn to drink at the water cooler.

I was queing behind hyme.

Wen its his turn to drink, he look at me and ask

'you wanna drink first?'

"huh? Its okaeyh, euu drinkk first"

'owh, nvm, euu can drink first.'

"huh? Haha! no, eu drink first."

'nvm, i can wait. Eu just drink first. Eu got match rite?'

"Yaaa, but nvm, euu drink first!

'owh,haha. okaeyh.'

See how stuborn he was?

haha! But he kinda cute actually.

Wen he's done, its my turn to drink.

Aftr drinking frm tat water cooler, turn around and saw hyme behind me!

Haha! I think he wanna drink again.

'Eu from bukit batok Sec?'

"Hmm, no. Bishan Park Sec"

'Owh. haha. I see. So how's the match? Who's leading'

"Haha, ur skewl."

'Owh! haha! okaeyh, gud luck *smiles* * wave*'

Awwwwww man! His smiles melt my heart bebeyh!

Okaeyh, ayien da gatal. Haha!

Bt i swear! I love the wae he smile!

Sooo the super duper Hawt!!!

Den tyme to go off.

Reached skewl, call mama and i said i wanna mit her to ask for money.

Waited fr bus wif areena. Saw puma and ask her to come along.

met mama at lavender and mama brought fr me kueh makmor tat she just bake.

gee. Nice! Tapy ader kacang hangos! haha.

Naseb kyter 3 tk puaser. So ate and ate but we were also looking out fr malay ppl.

haha! tknk drg npk kyter mkn luh!

Through out the journey in the bus,

was laughing our ass off till some off the people started to get irritated.

haha. Sorry areena, i cant follow eu to go to Puma house.

Tkder tyme luh cos i nid to mit fwens in geylang.

Reached home, planning to sleep fr a few mins cos im super super tired.

Woke up and it was 5 PM!

Stupid alarm clock! I was supposed to wake up around 4!

Was late to mit fyie and late to mit Juf, wan and yahye.

met fyie in the bus and reached geylang around 630.

met wan at firstlady den off to teh tarek nyer tempat to break-fast.

Juf and i was shy at first. We didnt talk much.

haha! Maluu laa ! Yahye and wan keep disturbing! Mcm maner nk bobal!

Den slowly2, we strted to talk.

In the end,im the noisier, kecoh-er den dem!

"dendeng laa Siooool!"

"Akuu nk balloon laa Xiyaaal"

hahaa! I keep using th word laa siyol, laa xiyal till all of them strtd saying tat word.

Copycat kn? Abeyh bbl word tuh samer ngan tone akuu plak tuh! Hmph!

I keep complaining to dem tat i wan balloon.

Den fyie took fr me balloon frm this balloon guy and gave it to me.

yes! Smile happily. They laugh at me and sae im like a small kid!

Awan: Ayien, pinjam balloon jap.

Ayien: Okae. *smile* *giv balloon to hyme.*

Awan: *started playing with the balloon*

One makcik: Nak , bleyh kasi balloon tuh pd anak cik tk?

Awan: Owh Bleyh! * give the balloon to the boyy*

Awan, Fyie, Yahye and Juf look at me.

I look at awan and show hyme the sad face,"My balloon)))':"

He laugh and said 'abey bdk tuh nk, aku bagy luh'

Awan gave my balloon to a small boyyy! Ishhk!

Fyie: Alaa, nnty i amek kn eu lagy luh.

Ayien: Tknk! I nk balloon tuh jgk!

Fyie: Laaaa, abeyh bdk tuh da amek.

Ayien: Ur mataer nyer psl luh!

Fyie: hahah. byk lagy ballooon kn. nnty i amek kae?

Ayien: Tknk! I majok!

Okaeyh, i noe im childish. But i wan back my balloon!

Haha, den end up awan buy this one light tat are sold fr $2.

its like a sword. Haha,

Awan: Nyah ayien, aku bagy kaw.

Ayien: huh? serious?! ahahha! jyeaaah!

Atleast he kind hearted luh, bought fr me the thing eventho i didnt get back a balloon.

Sat near Payah Lebar mrt station.

And juf bought fr me Dendeng! Yeeeppy!

Hahah!

Juf: nyah dendeng.

Ayien: owh, thankiiew(: Kaw pegang dulu luh kaeyh.

Juff: Okeyh.

Den a few minutes,

Juf: Oi! Mkn dendeng laa!

Ayien: Huh? Owh! nnty! Akuu nk maen lampu sword nieyh dulu.

Juf: Nyah laa * he wanna fed me some dendeng.*

Ayien: Huh? haha , tkper luh.

I shy luh he wanna feed me. haahah.

Den endup he still feed me. Haha!

And guess wat? Endup Yahye abeskn sumer dendeng akuu! JAHAT !

Den rounding2,and took pictures den off to go home.

We board the same bus and juf sat beside me((:

Awan and fyie sat beside us and kaypo2 listen to my convo wif Juf.

Naughty eyh korang! Sebok!

Haha, den they alight first.

Awwww, i super duper hate those 3 minah! and i super duper love the hawt guy in the bus!

Geee ^^

Bby, im sorry. I loveyou.

Dont love you no more

2009-09-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

Sakalalaa Bebeyhh!

'alaaa, pkai lah cap ke aper. Abeh tknk jumpe aku. Jumpe ah. Promise?'

'Eu crious nak tgl kn i?'

'Tomorrow reached here by 740'

'She jealous my hair curly, natural.'

'kaw nk nanges, nanges jer luh'

'Give me atleast one gud reason why eu love hyme so much'

'yaa. Stakad i tk lyn eu , eu nk kecoh2'

'He said u are so stuckup and no matter how hard i tried, i wont get u'

'I love u but u dont love me and u don wanna tell me the reason why'
'Ain, sowiie kae. Bsk2 sye nyanyikn. Tady was terribly busy.'

'Hahahks, py juf naqk umpe ue mah.. wan naqk umpe i.. Yq laki extra tu entaa lak sape dyier naqk umpe'

Today was kinda tiring day.

Had netball. Was let again.

Awwww, i didnt fast today, due to netball training.

Training end den off to opp to stuff in some food.

Eat, Share stories.

Fr the very first tyme, areena was interested in my story.

haha, slalu byler pat Zaid, Khai, kaw tkdr luh gynie mcm. HahaxD

Useful advise were given. Sighs, im tired of this.

Walk back home, reached home, sleep.

Woke up, and now playing lappy.

Im not looking foward to mit juf tomorrow.

After the hair cut, i don feel like miting anyone.

But i've promised juf.

Sighs.

Alot of questions are stuck in my head.

Yet not a single ans i've found.

Sighs.

Areena, Fyie, thanks fr the advise and making me smile wen chatting wif euu guys.

I did cried but now not anymore.

I was feeling down lately. Everyhtink seems to go wrong.

Yes areena, im weak.

Terlalu lemah to face all of this.

Who cares now. I don give a fucking damn.

And you boyy, wats wrong wif you?

Tk reti bahase ke akuu tk suker kaw?

Isshhk, mawu gua bobal bahase luu per?

maybe its true, akuu kecoh sgt psl kaw.

Fine,i wont bother anymore.

Labels; Im tired.

Hairul, iloveyou.

2009-09-09T19:48:00.000+08:00

This is not wat i wan.

Sakalalaaaa Bebeyhhh!

'Knaper lelaki dtg dan pergi? If they really loves us, why must they gone missing for a few daes, den return to euu again?'

'luper kn diyer suda. Its like deja vu. Eu've been hurt over and over again. Byk lagi laki laen,'

Its not the same anymore. This is not wat i expect it to be. This is not wat i wanted on this beautiful date. DISASTER!

Thanks areena, you've been a great best fren all this while. You've listen to all of my love problem eventho i noe eu're tired of listening to my stupid love life.

Im tired too. Im tired being in love, falling in love and getting hurt all the times.

I don even noe where do i stand. I don even noe who i am to hyme.

CRAP! BULLSHIT! I DON NID LOVE TO SURVIVE.

Moving on is wat im doiing rite now.

Aftr listening to RIA, the chanel of GIRLFRENS really thought me a lesson.

Jangan taruh terlalu byk harapan pd lelaki.

Crying really make myself feel better.

Miting pamela and fyie really cheer me up.

Laughing all dae long and spending time wif them make me realise tat i donnid love to make my life perfect.

All this long, where were euu wen i nid euu? They the one who alwaes been there fr me, cheering me up and make my dae.

'Iloveyou'. Thats all euu noe wat to sae.

But don euu noe im hurt? hurt coz all i've been wanting, didnt turn out like wat i expected.

Imissyou. Iloveyou. But it doesnt make any differents.

Sighs, sorry. i cant talk anymore. Speechless.

Gudnite swits.

lables; heartbroken

im moving on.

2009-09-07T17:10:00.000+08:00

Putrey nur'ayien(:

Sakalala Bebeyh~!

Harlow Oreeeooo!

This little princess wanna talk alot.

So bear wif it kay? Gee^^

I went to skewl late todae!

Huh? Yes, its holidae. But i hav to go to skewl to take maths re-test.

huhu^^ bdk pandai mcm akuu mmg slalu amek re-test.

haha! Woke up as per normal.

didnt woke up late todae.

Was all ready to skewl till illy text me tat she's gonna be late.

She asked me to go ahead first.

Well, i don wanna leave her alone, so i told her tat im going skewl wif her.

So sat and tried to stuff in some fomular into my brain.

Reached skewl around 1020.

Well, test strt at 930, Ends at 11.

See, we've got only 40 mins to do the paper and no extra tyme were given!

Was irritated by the guy hu sat beside me.

He kept reading the question loudly.

Kinda noisy but funny luhqk. Haha!

Look at kah siang, look at Izad and look at Illy.

Den illy look at me and ask how to do.

haha! akuu klao tawu uat, akuu da tk tgk org luhh! xD

test done and i guarrenty i failed again.

Recieve a msg from Dzul.

Dzul: Ain. kau kt mane?

Ayien: kat skewl. Knaper?

Dzul: Haha. Aku kt sebelah uma kau.

Was blank at that point of tyme, so i started thinking.

Ohh! Dzul's fwen are my neighbour!

Ayien: Haha! uat per kat saner?

Dzul: Ader group work.

Blablabla! And decided to mit hyme.

Uma sebela2 jer luh seyy!

haha! Den me, dzul, illy waited fr khairi under my block.

He reached, we talk and laugh.

Khairi downsyndrome luh seyy!

Huhu! Den went back home.

Tried to sleep but i cant. Soo hungry luh!

mcm nk batalkan jer! Sighs.

No! Iman ayien kuat okaeyh! Haha.

Otf wif areeena. Awwww, i miss her.

Nebermind, will mit her tomorow coz got netball training!

Now ayien get irritated wif guys luh!

tady ader laki msg ayien mintk knl2.

Kwn wan msn uh nieyh! Kasi number ayien sbrg!

Hmph. Den now got donnoe hu tah mintak knl2.

Naiim?? he said my skewl soccer team gave hyme the number!

FU*K YOU UHU GUYS!

Den dpt tawuu diyer curik my no, from yan's fone.

Irritating luh seyy! Ayien don tolerate euu guys!

ASSSSSSSS!

Sighs, bencii luh! Org nga puaser taww!

Tkmo bikens mrh bleyh?

Sigh, ayien happy skejap.

Coz tady Sharul called ayien. hehe((:

Da lamer tk dgr suare diyer. Hmph. Endup, gado den ltk!

Hais, now, just finished talking to Dzul.

Thanks eyh fr nyanyi lagu fr ayien. Sedaap(:

Areena, idk why i keep telling euu im sad.

Now, i've got no one to turn to.

Not even my soulbabe.

I don wanna be a burden to anyone anymore.

heyy you, Im moving on.

Labels; tired of thinking.

2009-09-06T16:09:00.000+08:00

Sakalala bebeyh!

harloww oreeeoo!

I'm just back from geylang wif ibuu and awien.

Went to geylang wif mama, ibu, awien, Ikkyn, Danny ang Abg.
Im super duper exhausted!

And im super duper not in a gud mood.

Sighs, i don get mama sometimes, i mean all the tyme;

each tyme wen we alwaes buying clothes fr Hari Raye.

I knew this gonna happened.

I knew everythink tat we gonna buy was not wat i wanted.

Fine, if euu wanna choose things euu wanna buy, tats up to eu.

But must euu choose fr me my own baju?

Im a grown up gurl. Why must its alwaes euu hu have to choose fr me?

I wear it. Not euu!

Its like dejavu.

Just the same as last year and every past year.

Euu choose, euu pay and im the one hu has to wear tat are not my taste.

Such a bias. She get everythink wat she wanted.

Even if it cost a few hundreds. Euu don mind at all.

But wen it comes to me, i have to follow ur budget.

I tried not to argue. Coz i don wanna make a big fuss in there.

I tried not to be rude to euu, coz eu are my mother.

but euu just don seems to understand wat i want.

Sighs, i just don feel lyke celebrating ari raye.

No point, da tk meria lagy.

Soulbabe, thanks fr cheering me up wen im down.

im fine(:

I saw buntal and he was lyke looking at me.

So i giv hyme the wth face =.="

huhu^^ Sorry, ayien klao tk suker org tuh, ayien tunjok muker.

Hehe.

And buker was hell! Menyesal mkn kat bedok banquet.

TASTELESS!

Sighs, sorry, ayien no mood.

Thanks to the things tat happened today.

Its wonderful falling in love.

But its hurtful ingnoring me.

Labels; im hurt.

Syurga Cinta

2009-09-06T10:24:00.000+08:00

Love don alwaes end in a happy ending.
Peek-a-boo!
Hello Switards! Gee.
Lets talk about yesterdae shall we?
Huhu ^^"
Yesterdae skewl as per normal.
And im kinda late. But luckily don hav to see mr. teo.
I get irritated wenever my classmate keep saying me and illy smoke.
Forgodsake, we are not a smokers!
Wanna noe why they keep saying we smoke?
Well, last thurs, Jerald, me, illy and pet wen to skewl late.
We went to skewl together and reached skewl around 8.30.
Om thought we smoke and hold us back.
Started to klentong and stuff.
And guess wat? We didnt get to go bck to cls to study.
Stay in detention corner and kena spotcheck and everythink.
Found ciggerettes in Illy's pocket.
Well, don misunderstood ppl, tat ciggerattes was not hers.
Its jerald's ciggerattes. Illy told om but he don wanna listen.
Sighs,disaster man, i tell euu.
Blablabla! All of us kena punishment.
Om told us yesterdae tat Illy and pet will be given 3 days of detention.
3 hours per dae, total 9 hours. Can laa eyh? Coz they were holding on to jerald's ciggerattes.
As fr me, i only nid to go fr 2 days detention.
I call mama and sae he wanna talk to her.
Ask mama to just listen to wat he said.
Well, mama da biaser dgrkn cikgu complaint psl akuu. haha!
So he talk to mama yesterdae and complaint tat i keep coming late for skewl.
He said i come late for skewl 10 times tis year!
I swear i cant recall. Since wen i come late for 10 times?
All i noe, this term, i only come late fr 6 times.
Last term i were never late before.
Sighs, mama dgrkn and sae arha, and done!
Huhu^^
I pity jerald. He kena cane, kena fine.
Sighs. If only we didnt go to skewl together.
Well, let bygone be bygone.
Okaeyh, lets get back to the topic.
yesterdae, skewl as per normal.
had netball and i swear i had no strength to do the training.
Fortunately, coach dismiss us early.
Start at 230, ends at 330. One hour only uh?
Cos most sec ones didnt come fr training.
After tat, arina, atiqah and i met illy and Sharifah.
5 of us will be going to Casafina condo to mit the dikir barat group; Nira.
So went back home. Change and everythink.
Den met the 4 of them in the bus and we were kinda lost.
Gee, kak liyana said alight at evergree grdn, upper eastcoast.
Den the condo was at bedok. Maner satu nieyh? haha.
The stupid bus driver said we had past the place.
Luckily, we didnt alight. we waited and waited till we found the place.
and we did! We alight and we are lost!
So call kak fat and she waited fr us.
Gee, reached the condo, den kyter sumer maluu luh seyh.
First tyme mah but atleast i did talk to them.
Unlike areena, kn illy? Areena malu2 kambing sia.
WTH-.-" Pdhal, diyer leader.
Sighs, euu disapoint me. Cheyy! mcm phm akuu!
Den introduce ourselves and they introduce themselves.
Abg Fiq funny luh seyy! Abg isa pn! Haha!
We break-fast at there, ate mee goreng.
Acerly byk food seyy. I want to eat Curry daging( Abg Fiq's cooking),
but areena, illy, atiqah and sharifah don wan.
So i also don wan uh. Malu luh.
But ayien nk mkn! Lapar taww!
Gee. okae shutup bitch!
Den abg Fiq brieft us abt dikir barat thingy.
I cant believe we alrdy join in! haha!
Competition will be around november.
And they were planning to book which CC fr us to practise in.
Hopefully dkt ngan newton. Haha! I wan at there luh!
But arrena and co. sumer tknk.
Sumer nk dkt amk! Tanaq uh!
I anti amk!
Haha, And i really hope they wont take CC kat pasir ris.
Pleeaaase, i really anti pasir ris.
I hate pasir ris because of tat JERK!
ASSS!
Anywhere but not pasir ris please!
gee!
Guess wat?!
Ayien get to eat doughnuts!
OMG! I like! Haha, ayien da lamer cravings fr doughnut taww!
Atlast, dpt mkn jgk! gee.
I wan my Chillie Crab,asss!
Huhu ^^
Aftr brief, we decided to go back.
Den took alot of pictures while walking and atiqah decided to take cab.
She belanje(: Den waited fr cab.
Most of the cab don wan to take us coz got 5 ppl.
But fortunately got this one uncle driver hu is soo kind hearted decided to take us.
And yesh! atlast!
gee. Illy alight at j8 while all of us alight at prime.
Atiqah went back home straight!
And blablabla!
Huhu!
Today, i wont be going anywhere, i guess.
I wanna stay at home.
Hopefully tomorow plan jady.
Illy wanna go geylang.
geylang again! Haha!
nvm, shall accompany her.
Well, we acerly took alot of pictures, but its in areena camera.
Shall uplaod soon yarhs?
takeqaire Swits!

Boyy, idk why euu ask me tat question.

But i don mind cos i noe euu were drunk ytd.

Sighs, next tyme don drink again okae?

Bby, i miss euu.

Awak wynduu sye tak?

Haha! Sye tk rase awk wynduu sye.

haha! nvm. Awak takeqaire kaey?

Sye syqk awk(;

labels; Loving someone doesnt mean eu have to own them